Mastering your System
Projectors are here to master systems so that they can be successful guides for others. Understanding a system to the core cultivates in the Projector the ability to recognize what is going on in the world around them, even inside of the other, perceiving directly how the process of enlivenment might be helped along through awareness.
Dear Projector, if you're reading this, the very first system you need to master is your own physiology. Not by domination, but by recognizing how your Design speaks its nature through your body, through your sensory contact with the environment, as it is received in awareness. We don't do any of our sense perceptions after all, we simply receive them as they are filtered by the Design.
In relation to your environment, you exist in a projection field. Projection is nothing bad (don't be fooled by much of the conventional interpretations in psychotherapy). The projection field is part of how you experience life, as well as your integration into the world - it is a mirror for you. What and whom you are drawn to connect with, how you perceive what is out there, is a reflection of your own state and condition.
Learning the language of your own biology is key to understanding the way in which the Design operates in its wholeness. Recognizing directly that we're all breathing together in a single continuous body - and that it has a nature. This is something that is constantly being communicated to you through the projection field.
You can learn the biological language of this system of life by studying how your form functions in relation to your environment - noticing its cycling through dualities of up and down, hot and cold, stimulation and neutral, acceleration and deceleration, energy availability and rest, intensification and deintensification, movement and stillness, doing and non-doing...
noticing the rhythms, the way things wiggle and oscillate as they pattern themselves, the way in which things respond to each other organically...
noticing the way in which the attention is naturally beckoned towards beauty and the simple, gentle pleasure of sensory stimulation...
noticing the way in which other bodies move and hold themselves up, without getting distracted by the personality layering on top...
noticing that all of this is already available without us needing to create any of it... There is seeing already happening.
All of this is what will reveal to you the nature of the Design, the intelligence that informs everyone's decision-making Authority, whichever one it may be.
Every system (including yourself) contains oscillation, and in that oscillation the Design brings messages of support from the unconscious to the conscious. You might recognize these as felt qualities that show up: your hand suddenly reaching up to carefully support your head, fingers stroking your lips or the side of your cheeks, a gentle rocking back and forth as you sit, feet that suddenly wiggle... and then, as we notice that contact, perhaps a quality of ease showing up elsewhere in the body. Soothing. Stabilizing. More present.
In the general Maya of Mind we pay little attention to these signals. We've been conditioned not to value them and even try to hide them or change them out of a sense of vulnerability or shame for looking weird. We were never taught to simply allow them to be and to drink them in. The Personality and the Design may have been placed into a forced marriage, as Ra liked to describe it, but they can have a communication of care and love. Between conscious and unconscious. Self to Self.
In the Not-Self we can get caught up in the negativity of the mind, absorbed and seeking a way out, running in circles, not noticing how good it feels to simply feel the temperature of our hand on our face for an extended moment of time. A simple gesture, but exactly the right quality of support in the right place at the right time, with the right intensity, not too much, not too little, providing us with an enjoyable portal back to our senses in the present.
In these times of crumbling support infrastructure around us, we may discover innate support emerging from our own depths. Not because we went digging and excavating into our darkness with the mind in the hope of finding the light, but because we made the effort to reclaim our attention back from the addiction to the Not-Self. Because we trained the mind to see differently. Because we opened up the door to awareness and invited the intelligence of the Design into the live conversation we are having with the world in every moment.
The more your mind can reside in the natural movement of your Design and track it, receptive to what it brings to you without overamplifying it, the more you'll understand the operating system we're all embedded in. The more your own nature is integrated within you, the more you'll recognize it effortlessly outside of you. And wisdom begins to flourish in your undefined centers. This is a biological cellular knowing, not a superficial mental memorization of 'how things are supposed to be' or copy-pasted wisdom from elsewhere to try and make an impact. The ocean of neutrino information simply flows through you, and you know what you need to know.
The more you can surrender your eyes to go where they want to go, seeing what they want to see while ignoring the delusional interpretation process of the Not-Self agenda, the more your Strategy and Authority can begin to truly unfold moment to moment.
This is vital for how we navigate the spaces between invitations. As Projectors, we too must be correct moment by moment, even though we might wait for the right invitation for years. In between invitations, what we take care of is our eyes (including our third eye), gifting ourselves the ability to perceive clearly. This is what the other Types need from us. To help them recognize where the unconscious Design already wants to go, and how we might get organized around that.
And all of this begins by recognizing when enough is enough. Recognizing when your system is making the shift from acceleration to deceleration, activity to rest. If you're reading this, I invite you to take a few moments to simply let go into wonder, without trying to create anything new. Perhaps gently asking yourself these questions, slowly, one by one, to nourish your seeing and guide your own awareness:
1) If I let my eyes go where they want to go, wandering around in the external environment, where do I notice the greatest sense of ease?
2) Without mental interpretation, what are these eyes already seeing that I may not have noticed before?
3) What are the physical properties of that? Can I see its color, texture, shape? How does that register to my awareness, without me trying to do or create any of it?
4) If I stay with this just a little while longer, lingering at this contact surface of awareness with the external world, as my eyes easily go where they want to go, might I notice something different than before? Is there something new?
5) After having wondered freely for a little while, how do I feel overall compared to before?
If you took the time to participate in this little exercise, I'd love to hear about your experience.
Enjoy your movie,
Hagen
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Living Your Human Design Isn't Always Easy
Living Your Design Isn't Always Easy
During a profound shattering it may seem like you're never going to come out on the other side. Each of us have layers and layers of past conditioning that is neutralized, as cellular transformation is realized.
In my HD experiment I've been experiencing an ongoing Shattering, mutating in pulses throughout the last few years and would like to share it with you all. This transformation is centered around my Undefined Splenic Center (survival recognition function) and completely Open Heart Center (willpower function).
My Story
For years, on and off for decades, I actively avoided looking at my face in the mirror. It was too triggering for me to me to endure, spiraling me into unhealthy excesses to avoid feeling. I would go days without seeing my reflection. Most of the time only taking momentary glances to make sure that I was semi presentable to the outside world. At various points throughout my life, I’ve encountered others telling me how pretty they thought I was. They often confessed wishing they could go without makeup too. I just didn’t see what they saw and was skeptical of their complements. They never knew the truth of why I hardly wore any.
I don’t remember what my face even looked like before the scar was there. I was such a small child when the incident occurred that left that gash above the corner of my lip. But I remember the moment it happened, reliving the horror in my dreams and, often, while I was awake. The terror, the lack of security, unable to defend myself as I cowered in fear. I still feel the aftershocks when my emotional wave is low.
My mind taunting me with a persistent, lingering false belief that I wasn’t worth protecting.
That I wasn’t worth it, or anything.
Tainted Self-Love
That voice in the back of my mind has tainted my entire life since. Destroying any hope that I would actually find happiness within, always looking outside myself to fill a void. Neediness encompassed most of my decisions and actions. Proving I was “good enough” was a norm. Always looking for someone or something that would allow me to grasp a “love that would fix it all.”
I dulled my senses just to be able to look in the mirror and “doll” myself up. At times I abandoned my natural gifts to conform to what others thought I should be. Trying to prove that I was good enough for them. Holding onto things that weren’t good for me because I wanted to be ‘loved’.
At the time, I didn’t know a better way.
I do now.
Now don’t get me wrong, I tried. I’ve not just been sitting on my hands for decades. Starting when I was 7, I began my quest to self-heal. By the time I was 13, I could comprehend more complex ideas and started intense research in the fields of healing, self-help and psychology.
I’ve studied so many systems. Shadow-hunted the hell out of my deep-rooted fears and unhealthy conditioning. Sat through countless hours of meditation and self-hypnosis in an attempt to unlock self-love. I’m far from that terrified little girl I was 36 years ago, and yet I was still triggered by the memory, especially when it came to embracing my self-worth.
My Worth is Not Determined by the Actions of Others
And now, years into my Human Design experiment, I confidently say that when I look in a mirror, I LOVE what I see. All of it. Even the messy bits. And sure, the memories are still there, but the pain. The pain has gone.
I didn’t get to this point alone. I have the best entourage a gal could ever dream up. A wolf pack of the most empowering humans that are deep into their own HD experiments. Including a mentor who is not afraid to share the messiness of her past to help us forge ahead through the trenches.
As a Projector, this is exactly what I need. I learn about myself through learning about others. Each of us radically living our own experiments while empowering, sharing, and supporting each other.
The other day, I looked into the mirror and declared, “I love you.” It wasn't the first time that I had reflected those words back at myself, but this time it felt different.
I Felt Cool, Calm & Emotionally Clear
While gazing lovingly at myself, a Flaming Lips song stole the scene. It’s been one of my favorites since I was a teen and completely encompasses what self-love feels like to me.
I’d like to share the lyrics and their official video with you.
“When You Smile” by The Flaming Lips
It’s like I never had to see it in your eyes or feel it I could tell
When you smile.
It’s like I didn’t need to say anything or do much, I could tell
When you smile
All of the subatomic pieces come together and
Unfold themselves in a second...
Every single molecule is right, when
All of the subatomic pieces come together and unfold
Themselves in a second.
written under the Cosmic Influence of
ⵙ 43.5 ⴲ 23.5
I originally published this article with no expectations on HumanDesign.LIVE, the safe space that was lovingly created by Laveena for our Fractal to learn from sourced based material and support each other as we continue on with our personal Human Design Experiment.
I would say that I am surprised by the number of responses I have received when I shared my story, but with my design, I often draw in those who need someone to listen to what they're going through. Each message has been rich with stories of similar experiences.
One of the greatest joys I have uncovered with Human Design is the ability to not only more clearly see myself, but also see others and where their struggles may come from.
Thank you to all of you that have trusted me with your personal stories. I adore your courage to share.
Sometimes it helps to be able to share what you’re going through with someone who just plain gets it.
I invite you to reach out to me if you are looking for support for your own Human Design Experiment and deconditioning process.
A Fresh Start - Coming Back to Your Senses
Thoughts from a 2/5 Splenic Projector in the Human Design Experiment
The great thing about being Splenic is that any moment you can just start over.
I’ve been ‘in the experiment’ with Strategy and Authority for a number of years, and this morning I let go of my imagined linear track towards the 7 year deconditioning marker. I just started over with a beginner’s mind. No answers, only questions and curiosity.
What does it really mean to follow my Splenic awareness moment by moment as a Projector?
I was recently interviewed by Jelena Legcevic to provide some insight into questions like this for newcomers to Human Design. And I had a thing or two to say about it. But having had some time to ponder all of that, I’m considering that the question is more powerful than the answer.
I recall some things I wrote in my original introduction to this network, which more or less includes one of the most alive questions I have today:
How can I live more closely to the contact surface of awareness with its body and the environment - here and now?
Metaphorically speaking, in front of me I can see a fork in the road. Paying more attention to the simple signals of the senses and how the external world is contacting me, or getting predominantly absorbed in the wonder of my defined Head and Ajna, and whatever the mind thinks it knows or hypothesizes.
I can’t get rid of that mind, but perhaps my attention can be much more anchored in the sensory world than it currently is.
Much of my habitual attunement to the body signals have reinforced a way of sensing inside the body. But I think the real place for me to be is at that contact surface with the environment - the exterior world. Primarily noticing the external, then recognizing how the inner speaks about that sensory world and its qualities, rather than first digging into the inner sensations in order to get a perspective on the outer.
But I reckon that I still often get caught in a mental trap where the mind insists on being the interpreter of sensory data, moving from physicality to symbolic meaning and back, rather than simply from physical signal to responsive impulse.
Having a mind that is incredibly loud acoustically and visually, it presents a major psychic hurdle. Reinforced habits that keep my attention stuck on the mental plane, such as episodes of triggering memory flashes, leaving me dangling desperately in the unresolvable questions of my undefined Centers.
It’s a curious thing that there is this assumption floating around that we can somehow ‘remember’ our true self, our authentic individuality. Perhaps you experience something similar in your process that prevents you from staying present to the body’s life. This sudden overwhelm that opens Pandora's Box and out comes a flood of memories and past conditioning, pressuring you to find some kind of anchor in the truth of who you are amidst the confusion. Then the mind interacts with the memory and creates an endless loop of overthinking, pretending it is trying to see something new that finally resolves the 'issue'. And in the meantime you go back to some routine coping habit rooted in a Not-Self strategy.
If any of this sounds familiar, you’re not alone!
To at least open up a pathway out of this, in order to have a fresh start and not get spellbound by these psychic episodes of mental resistance to transformation, we can take a look at some particular mechanics for insight:
The Memory Circuit
If you look at the image above you can see something straight away: memory is not about the Empowered Knowing of Individuality.
For those of you who want to study this in greater depth, you can find resources on this as part of Ra's Rave Anatomy Courses.
Without going into too much depth on the memory circuit in this short article, I just want to point out one obvious thing: there are no Individual Channels that are part of the memory circuit.
So this leads us to a crucial insight: whenever you have memory flashes in which you’re seeking to find your individual truth in order to overcome life's oppression – you won’t. It isn’t mechanically possible. Yet in the hypnosis of that experience, the bait is that if you just dig deep enough, you can figure it out. At least, this is what keeps me endlessly tunnelling down the rabbit hole – dissociating away from my sensory contact with the external world. And it's this external environment that I invite you to bring yourself back to.
A fresh start in your experiment is all about gently coming back to your senses in the present. The simplicity of how the outer landscape is contacting your various sense organs here and now. After all, the intelligence of your Authority is rooted in your sense perception.
Sense perception is part of the substructure beneath the level of the Line, called Tone. You can learn more about this by finding relevant material online, and you can also be guided into how it works for you by Laveena in one of her Radical Transformation Clinics.
The mind may find this boring, addicted to the intensity of turning life into a problem to solve and coming up with many stimulating strategic ideas and revelations, but this boredom can be a refuge for your self-recovery that eventually opens up into the simple pleasure of being.
Reattuning to the external world, its simple physical features and many qualities - in whatever way they are available to you without forcing anything. Without seeking the next sensory orgasm for the mind to get high on, but simply dwelling in the contact with the environment, allowing your attention to freely wander and trace the textures of the landscape with ease and curiosity.
Letting your eyes go where they want to go for a while, and just noticing what it’s like to be where you are.
How are your senses letting you know that you’re in this place, here and now?
What does that knowing smell like? Does it have a flavor? A color or texture? A warmth? What else?
And while you’re here, you might as well notice how your body is enjoying that for a while.
Soft snowy vibes amidst misty mountains,
Hagen
幽玄, Melancholy, Waiting, Art and Noticing
photo by Mitchell Hartley
For me, following Strategy & Authority is not the Main Stream, it is not the highway everyone uses to get most efficiently from point A to point B. It's that little path off to the side that disappears around the bend, leading who knows where - perhaps to 'the' place, perhaps not at all.
It's an experience that holds a lot of melancholy for me as an individual, and it's in this sad emotional mood that I find a transcendent kind of beauty that I wouldn't trade for the world.
I have always been drawn to oriental philosophies and arts because these traditions have a certain way of dwelling in nature. A way of stopping all the doing doing doing and instead, residing with awareness in the present as the trees wiggle, as the clouds drift along, as the waves ripple across the surface of the waters, and as the sun and stars wheel on by.
Out of this awareness and mode of perception, many beautiful concepts have emerged that touch on qualities of experience the productive busy world has no attention for - especially in the 'West'. Japanese aesthetics have always captivated me since I was a child.
There are many particular Japanese aesthetic qualities that I'd like to write about within the context of the mechanics, but we'll focus on just one of them today which is called:
Yūgen - 幽玄
(https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Japanese_aesthetics)
Yūgen (幽玄) is an important concept in traditional Japanese aesthetics. The exact translation of the word depends on the context. In the Chinese philosophical texts the term was taken from, yūgen meant “dim”, “deep” or “mysterious”. In the criticism of Japanese waka poetry, it was used to describe the subtle profundity of things that are only vaguely suggested by the poems.
Yūgen is said to mean “a profound, mysterious sense of the beauty of the universe… and the sad beauty of human suffering”.
Yūgen suggests that beyond what can be said but is not an allusion to another world. It is about this world, this experience.
(Ortolani, 325). Ortolani, Benito. The Japanese Theatre. Princeton University Press: Princeton, 1995
My favorite description of this concept so far belongs to Alan Watts in his lecture on Japanese aesthetics called 'Unbleached Silk'.
Here you have a short audio clip in which he describes Yūgen specifically:
Alan Watts - Unbleached Silk_cut_part 3_cut.mp3
"Little sounds emphasizing silence, little motions emphasizing stillness"
"Suggestiveness"
There are many things Alan speaks to in this lecture that would merit pointing out and discussing - perhaps we'll get there sometime.
At the end of his explanation of yūgen he begins to describe how it flows over into another concept called 'sabi', which as a quality reflects the essential solitude of being in our own nature.
In the next few paragraphs, I will connect the concept of yūgen with the melancholy and solitude of Individuality as we know it in Human Design terms, using the medium of art.
Yūgen in Art
I love having conversations with artists and those deeply immersed in the arts who have an acute eye and feeling for the creative self-expression of individuality.
Had I been a Generator, or carried any of the Channels of Creativity connected to a Motor Center, I'd probably spend my days drawing, painting and sculpting away. My talent for art is sporadic and in hibernation most of the time. So I'm very glad to have connections with very vivid artists who bring their world into my life.
In a recent exchange with one of my friends, the artist Andrew Wyeth was mentioned, along with some of his incredible pieces:
Artist: Andrew Wyeth
As I observed these paintings, the quality of yūgen seemed at once all-pervasive to me. I wrote to my friend:
"The atmosphere and awareness suggested by each of these paintings is defined by what isn't there. We don't know if it isn't there yet, or if it isn't there anymore. Whatever the 'it' might be.
This is the quality of yūgen that accentuates at once every small thing and subtle nuance that is there. The blades of grass, the texture of the fields, the gradients of colours, light and shading. The placement and posture of bodies and objects interacting with the wind. It evokes the melancholic emotional mood of anticipation and loss, as we wait for 'it'.
And in this waiting there is only the noticing of the beauty of all that is there. All that isn't 'it'. All that isn't 'it' yet. All that will never be 'it'.
If we can accept the waiting and be with that, we won't miss a thing."
Yūgen, Melancholy, Waiting, Noticing
It is difficult to wait at first, when we are in our early experiment with our Strategy and Authority. In the end, every Type must wait - even the Manifestor. Each of us waits for the right time to be moved by life in one way or another. Though most of us have been raised with the conditioning that we should make it happen, that we should do it in order to be it, or achieve it, or experience it, or have it,...
It is a challenge for the mind to let go, and we can find ourselves addicted to action, and to the generating of the sacral. When we look at the busy-ness of modern society, and have conversations with people who are in that productive flow day-in day-out, then the compulsion to do, and the negative association with non-doing, are very much on the surface.
I did some research at university regarding people's perspectives on 'not doing' or 'non-doing'. And often people who struggled with not keeping themselves preoccupied reported similar fears:
Gate 55 The Fear of Emptiness
Gate 22 The Fear of Silence
Gate 28 The Fear of Death
Gate 57 The Fear of Tomorrow
Gate 24 The Fear of Ignorance
Gate 43 The Fear of Rejection
You can read more about each of these fears in the Definitive Book of Human Design, or by participating in one of the courses such as Living Your Design, Rave ABCs or Rave Cartography.
Each of these fears is part of our circuit of Individual Knowing, the central pathways that run throughout the Bodygraph. Because they are Individual, they are formatted by the frequency of the Pulse in the 3/60 Channel of Mutation, which is a timed release mechanism for the profound mutation that Individuality can bring.
The Pulse fluctuates and initiates suddenly and seemingly out of nowhere. But until it does, it isn't there. Nothing is happening. Nothing is happening. Nothing is happening. Until there is the sudden spark of mutation that can create a new order out of chaos.
This is the process that also underlies the chemistry of melancholy: an emotional mood of sadness that is present in these empty spaces between pulses. And when you look at many artists, you'll see that their creativity and art contains this sadness. It is what can be most attractive about them to their audience. This touch of melancholy gives their work poetic depth and augments the beauty that they have managed to channel into form.
The artistic skill that could appear to elevate them far beyond the crowds of people who would never dare dream of being so creatively inspired or capable, is somehow balanced by the mood of melancholy that pervades their art. It reminds everyone that the artist is human too, that they too have suffered existence in form, in one way or another. And it can be a point of connection, when they can recognize their own individual sadness mirrored in the sadness of the artist. The spectator can feel known, can recognize in themselves what they are otherwise too busy (or afraid) to see: the solitude of their individuality - and its uniqueness. This is what gives art its empowering potential.
You can notice the power of melancholy in Andrew Wyeth's work. Even though it isn't the only quality noticeable in the figures, landscapes and objects, you can see how each of them are held in this emotional sadness. This waiting in between the pulses of change. Also notice the quality of loneliness or aloneness (depending on how you want to look at it). This sense of 'there's just me now...' is part of the melancholy of individuality.
The Gates I listed above are awareness gates that belong to the Solar Plexus Center, the Splenic Center, and the Ajna Center. These are the fears that we confront in the solitude of our individuality and they each reflect the absence of something.
Gate 55 The Fear of Emptiness, reflects the absence of passion.
Gate 22 The Fear of Silence, reflects the absence of attention.
Gate 28 The Fear of Death, reflects the absence of purpose.
Gate 57 The Fear of the Future, reflects the absence of truth.
Gate 24 The Fear of Ignorance, reflects the absence of certain knowing.
Gate 43 The Fear of Rejection, reflects the absence of acceptance.
And it's in this absence that we struggle to dwell in the waiting, because the Pulse does not let us know when change will come. We don't even know if it will come at all. We're just suspended in the here-and-now.
To me, it is this absence that marks the quality of yūgen, the emptiness, the silence, the not-knowing, the purposelessness. In the Westernized busy world, we have no cultural frame or appreciation for this, and so it freaks most people out. When I interviewed people about this, it seemed that these fears tend to be too much to handle. I wondered if that's because you can only venture through them alone, and most people do not dare, so they cling to a mental preoccupation instead of their own unstimulating company.
And yet here you have artists like Andrew Wyeth who remind people there is something mysterious and profound about the absence of something. He reminds his audience to reside in the waiting, to move through the sadness of being in between that which has been and that which is not yet.
Through his art, it is the quality of yūgen that reveals something extraordinary: that if you can just be with the waiting, all of a sudden - everything that is there, all the subtle nuances and details that would go unnoticed in busy doing, finally there is the space for all of that to permeate awareness and stimulate consciousness in a supreme yet peaceful way. This is the power of suggestiveness that absence holds.
Suddenly, in the sadness of being, beauty is everywhere in the most dull and boring of places. One can see the whole universe contained within the absence of anticipation, disclosed by the wiggling of a decaying leaf - like 'little sounds emphasizing silence'. And this deep silence being more profound and meaningful than anything that could ever be said.
Suddenly there is something to pay attention to, something to be passionate about, there is purpose, there is life, truth, knowing and creativity. And it's all right here and now. It emerges as naturally as anything else, without us needing to 'do' anything to bring it about. Then we are called by our creative muse to channel the sadness of our own unique individuality into art.
It just required waiting, waiting, waiting and then noticing.
The acceptance of the absence.
The path that disappears in the fog, not needing to know where it may lead.
Yūgen.
Enjoy your movie,
Hagen
Keynoting example of Emotional Projector from Professional Analyst Training Level 1
PTL1 Analyst Training - Keynoting Practice (Design Nodes)
Hi all,
I've been invited to share some of the keynoting practice that happens behind the scenes in our PTL1 Analyst Training classes.
Last week we were practicing entering into someone's chart through the Design Nodes and bringing these together with Type, Strategy & Authority and Openness.
I did my best to write up keynoting for Naraya Fox. In the video above you can listen to me read out loud while Laveena touches on the relevant aspects of Naraya's chart as I speak them.
At the bottom of this article, you can find the text written out in full.
This may be an interesting and helpful example for those of you who have taken the foundational courses such as Rave ABCs and Cartography, and for those of you who are self-studying, if you would love to do analyst work like this.
Analyst Training takes approximately 4 years, so we're just at the beginning here, but the difference in my ability to read into a chart after two semesters of training with Laveena is already something I'm enjoying very much.
When I write an analysis like this I bring together the skill of reading a chart and the poetry of keynoting with what I have physically recognized in the person (if I've met them). The magic of the Human Design system is that the keynoting is highly accurate, it works, even though you may not necessarily know what these things mean to the person you're speaking to. You speak the words, you watch them land and evoke a real physical response. It's magical, and this can also be a source of insecurity initially.
It's always a slippery slope for me to say things I cannot be certain of. I have been educated not to assume someone else's reality, not to impose my ideas about who they are or think they should be onto them. Listening back to the recording, I can hear this familiar hesitation in me. When it comes to Human Design, if I have directly seen a particular phenomenon described in the mechanics, then I know what I'm saying. But many times, I read someone's chart and I know conceptually this is how it works - but I haven't seen it live yet.
I don't enjoy approaching someone with 'this is how you're supposed to be'. We all know the Not-Self will be prone to disagreeing with you anyway, but equally you can't just go: "No no, I'm the Analyst here, I know what this is, you're Not-Self and don't know who you are. Let me tell you."
(or at least with my undefined centers that would be very tricky to pull off with integrity.)
Especially when you actually don't know what it is, and you only have the theory, your imagination and assumptions... You can end up gaslighting your client. It's necessary that you recognize where you are at with a measure of humility. Then surrender to the process of transmission, and with respect to the one you're talking to. Simply knowing how to do keynoting does not mean you 'know better', that you are aware and understand the mechanics.
This is the edge that you walk on as an Analyst, because there will always be so much you haven't directly seen, and that you can never experience yourself. This is where you inevitably do take a leap of faith and trust in the system as Ra laid it out. And that's why it has to earn your trust through validation over and over again, indefinitely. Even after death, Ra needs to continue to prove himself ongoingly.
As a professional in Human Design, you take the risk and see what happens. If you use the right keynotes then more often than not the receiver knows exactly what you're talking about (they are living it after all) - and that's the magical surprise. You never know if it's going to happen, but when it does it's extraordinary. Then you discover alongside them how those particular mechanics function - it's very beautiful and humbling to experience. So most importantly, it is the physical response that matters, that's where the theory of the system is substantiated in practice.
I can remember doing keynoting for a Reflector, and as I read it out to them experienced them feeling seen at a level that the aura doesn't allow for. I watched their body posture drop into an open relaxation with tears of relief rolling down their cheeks. They said they finally felt like they could be who they were with somebody and feel understood. Had I tried to scan them with my Projector eyes without studying their chart, I only would have seen myself.
All of my Human Design teachers have said people come back to them years after their Foundation Reading, thanking them for the keynoting because it was profoundly true and helpful in the end - even though the person didn't see it and disagreed with it at the time. They went on with their lives, continued with their trial and error process and eventually came to recognize that what they had been told was valid after all.
I can say this was certainly the case for me. Perhaps you had a similar experience.
So, for those of you who are keen to read here is the text:
Naraya, as a Projector you are Designed to be recognized and invited into the environment where you can thrive and fulfil your purpose. In the wake of the invitation, it is your emotional authority that lets you know this is the place to be. It is through the neutral clarity that arises, after the highs and lows have moved through you, that you can follow an invitation to an environment that nurtures the flourishing of your purpose in due time.
For the first half of your life, where you find yourself is a place of need. An environment where there is the pressure to have all needs met on the material plane and perhaps even the scarcity thereof. It is a transpersonal environment where you are surrounded by familiars, people who use their network to find the opportunities to meet their needs, and there is likely to be burnout and fatigue – though it may not necessarily be yours. It’s an environment of interrelatedness, where individuals find cooperation as part of a team.
Halfway through life, you can expect a change of scenery as you bump into a new place for you to be on your experimental trajectory. It is a place of privacy, where there is active withdrawal and the transformation of a weak position into a strength. A place where people find dignity in their fatigue and retreat without turmoil.
Naraya, as an Investigative Martyr, your public role is to be embedded into these environments as someone who studies deeply to secure the foundations for their authority about what they know, share and can support others with, through experimental trial and error. These are places where you can successfully make and break bonds in your determination to discover what actually works. These are the environments where you can move through public spaces where people can come and go through your aura as you process and digest life and assimilate its information.
As you accumulate life experiences and capture the lessons inherent in each mistake, you are driven to remember what didn’t work. This gives you a healthy pessimism, meeting others with your belief that what is best can never be achieved. This prevents you from becoming unrealistic in your expectations. At the right time, you’ll be able to share the secrets you have kept safely so that all can benefit from the nuggets of wisdom they contain.
You may find yourself surprised that people in these environments will recognize you for your sensitivity to the needs of the community and how they can be met, for your ability to recognize which feelings to focus on within the whole spectrum of possible experiences we could share, and for your individual mental inspiration that is highly mutative and empowering in its knowing of underlying principles to life’s mysteries.
Naraya, you have a profound emotional nature, the depths of which are largely unconscious to you. As this emotional undercurrent stirs, your fantasy and imagination may give rise to expectations and a yearning to have desire fulfilled and needs met. It is important that you cultivate patience with yourself and learn to enjoy fantasy for what it is without giving in to the pressure of expectation. To experience the experiencing for its own sake so you can be fully immersed in it and know what merits reflection afterwards.
It may be very tempting to jump spontaneously into wild adventures, especially either on the emotional highs or lows of your deeply sensitive nature. It is here where your mind can trick and trap you through conditioning, Naraya. With patience you can observe and watch it think that you should prove your worth, that you should make big promises and commit, that you should hold on for your survival even if whatever you’re holding onto is toxic to you, that you should continue to do more and be more productive even though you’re all out of energy and need rest.
The mind may think that you need to make sure you demonstrate that you’re the best, that you have the right values, that you can persevere no matter what difficulties may come your way, fuelled most intensely by the fear of responsibility and irresponsibility.
If only you had more skills, more ambition, more joy and stimulation, more continuity, more power, more vision – don’t buy it! You are not lacking any virtues, gifts or abilities. You are enough exactly as you are to live this life correctly and thrive in it. Bitterness can contaminate you with any spontaneous mental decision that leads you into the wrong thing that goes wrong. That is not what you’re here for Naraya, you’re here for the right thing that goes wrong.
Trust in your emotional nature, this emotional body of yours, to know when the right time has come to say ‘yes’, to interact with and guide those who recognize you for the things that light you up inside! When you align with your Inner Authority your mind can be freed to pay attention to who is out there and to recognize their beauty, their gifts, their energies so you can know how to guide successfully.
You have an incredible potential to be wise about who has got the willpower to reliably support the tribe. Who has got a healthy ego to massage and sell the tribe on what is best for its continuity and material well-being? Who has got the drive to rise up in the material world and do what it takes to get there?
Whose immune system is healthy or unhealthy? Who has got the values by which we can nurture our young correctly? Who has got the vitality and joy to correct our collective patterning into the future? Who has got the skills that can bring out the depth so the correction can be creatively expressed?
And who has got the receptivity and the vision to know which creative direction we should invest our wealth into? These are the things you can recognize and know! Once your mind is no longer burdened with worrying about your life, these are the things it can start to pay attention to instead.
For yourself, you can become wise about the fact that you have nothing to prove, that your value is innate. You can be wise about when enough is enough and when to let go.
And with the patience to wait for recognition and an invitation, it is your emotional body that will let you know with whom you are here to connect, and whom you are here to guide in a way that brings you success and fulfilment.
The Projector's Subtle Habit of Initiating
A HumanDesign.Live Advice Post by Hagen Artley, 2/5 Splenic Projector, Mental Split, Cross of Explanation
The following article can be enjoyed in 2 ways: full-length and summary.
If it's too much of a read for you, only reading the bold black and blue text will still make sense and summarise the whole thing.
Dear Projector,
Your curiosity is something that probably many Projectors encounter about their own behaviour in relation to others along the way. And how incredible to get to this place of questioning something that seems to be a very ordinary thing to say:
“I would like to spend time with you sometimes. :)”
Is this actually an initiation? If so, how many other ordinary interactions or messages we text to others frequently could be initiations?
It’s quite a radical thing to ask ourselves. How could we tell? And does it mean that statements like this are incorrect every time?
Laveena often says in her classes that Strategy and Authority, particularly for Projectors, are for the big things in life that really change things up for us: the people we spend time with, the relationships we have, the places we stay in, where we live, the work we do, etc. However, for day-to-day navigation and regular interaction with friends and relatives, many Projectors experience the need for a more refined tool to help them navigate the subtleties – as not every single thing comes with an explicit, loud and clear invitation. And it's not like we can use S&A for the big things and then return to mental decision-making in between...
After his first few years of teaching the Human Design system, Ra approached Projectors with an apology.
He said he’d done them an injustice because so much of his attention had been focused on trying to get Generators to respond. He came to realize that Strategy and Authority was too limited for Projectors. Ra added Color Transference as another essential tool for our Type to recognize what contexts and interactions are correct for us, and which ones are not. He introduced it as a ‘power that we (Projectors) never had before’.
Color Transference is something that operates at a level below the Line, so it requires a more subtle level of perception and awareness to see it. Projectors more readily operate at that level, though it may take some years of deconditioning for the brain fog to clear enough so that we can see the phenomenon at work. It's part of the Four Radical Transformations of Human Design.
The two main Color Transference tools we were given are Color Motivation (Personality Sun/Earth) and Perspective (Personality Nodes).
You may already know your Color Motivation, Perspective and Transference, but before I talk about how it applies to this process of learning how not to initiate, I just want to clarify things a bit more for those who are new to the mechanism.
A great piece on this by Ra to start off with is this one:
Here Ra talks about these tools that we as Projectors can use in relation to others in order to develop our seeing as passenger consciousness. He explains in detail the dilemma we have with Strategy and Authority alone, and how we can turn it into a problem when it doesn’t have to be one.
One of the things he says here is this:
“You get an invitation from somebody, you enter into that correctly, but the reality is if you're watching your process during the course of the time you're with them, you'll notice that there'll be a shift to your distraction. You're suddenly being pulled away from what's correct for you and it is in those moments where you need to recognize you’re being conditioned and watch that conditioning.
Because this is what it's all about. And being able to SEE the conditioning, gives you a way out.
Very hard for projectors to go like this. It's very hard to say “I need your generating and manifesting but not now.” There's this fear that you don't get it back, there's this fear that you lose it. There is this deep deep drive inside to hold onto… that connection no matter how you end up rationalizing that in your design.
So it becomes very important for you to begin to see the way in which you are being influenced on an ongoing basis by those beings around you. And remember why we see this. Not to end the relationship. This is not about that. It's not about saying “this person is terrible for me and I never want to see them again”, it isn't about that at all. It's about your potential, to actually SEE them conditioning you.
Most people think that you need to have a solution “Let's stop the conditioning" and so on… We don't want to stop conditioning. The only time that you can stop conditioning, is when you die. Conditioning ends at death. Until then it's a part of our lives. It doesn't have to be something that's negative. It doesn't. It could be the most fascinating thing in your life.”
– Ra Uru Hu
In this article, we’ll just focus on Color Motivation. Laveena has already written some rich articles on the subject which you can find here:
In a nutshell, below the level of the Line we have further layers of differentiation: the Color, the Tone and the Base – this is called the ‘substructure’ out of which everything we see on the surface of the Bodygraph emerges. Layer after layer, our frequency works its way up from the depths of the Base to the surface of the Line as it differentiates into a precise and nuanced expression of consciousness in form. This substructure is the way in which the crystals of consciousness operate as they filter the neutrino information feed.
Now, Color Motivation is the state of mind that you are pulled into by your environment and the people you interact with.
It creates the cognitive filter for how you take information in and how you learn. This state of mind is informed by your sense perception, which takes place at the level of the Tone - but we don’t need to go into that much detail here. Similar to our 6 Lines, there are 6 different Color Motivations named Fear, Hope, Desire, Need, Guilt and Innocence. To know which one applies to you your time of birth must be quite accurate and you’ll need to access software that can produce charts with this information (all popular HD software I know of can show it).
When you are able to watch your mind, when you can observe what’s going on in there without identifying with its ‘I’ as being who you are, then you can witness these layers of the mechanics live at work.
You can notice the scripts of the Lines as the voice in the head chatters away, you can notice the adaptive Not-Self strategies from the undefined centers show up as mental agendas and proposals for action (“if I do this, then I’ll get that”). And you can notice the Color Motivation – it is the overall state of mind you are in, the underlying quality that animates your thinking.
Each of us has a correct Color Motivation that is pure, that allows our Personality to assimilate information and express Outer Authority. However, it is also a binary.
Color is something that is moving and dynamic, it swings constantly from its correct frequency to its distracted counterpoint like a pendulum. When the Color frequency shifts, it undergoes a process called Transference.
Transference means the frequency shifts over to its harmonic opposite. Fear shifts to Need, Hope shifts to Guilt, Desire shifts to Innocence and the other way around in each case. When this occurs, we experience a distorted quality of that Color Motivation. It becomes disconnected from correct cognition.
This means we do not see clearly and the mind tends to freak out about this because it temporarily has no access to awareness, and it doesn’t know when awareness is going to be restored – it is blinded.
When you look at your own Transference Color Motivation you can add the word ‘blind’ in front of it to make its quality very clear: blind fear, blind hope, blind desire, blind need, blind guilt, blind innocence. Each one of them is an unintelligent expression of mind, and one of them will be particular to you.
This is not something that is bad or wrong. You don’t have to try to fix it. But it is also not a basis to make decisions from – it is something to observe. We need this contrast in order to distinguish what our pure Color Motivation is. It helps us recognize correctness from incorrectness. It is not something we can do anything about, we can only learn to abide more and more deeply by S&A as opposed to overreact from the Not-Self.
To learn more about the specifics of each of these Color Motivations, you can join Laveena's Radical Transformation Clinic for Non-Sacrals here:
So having explained the basics a bit, we can return to your inquiry, Roxana.
Is the text message “I would like to spend some time with you sometimes. :)” really an initiation?
What makes you think so? Did you feel bitter some time afterwards?
Giving this some thought myself, looking at examples in my own life, it seems to me that the Color Motivation can be a determining factor. It’s what turns a message like that into an initiation as opposed to a simple expression of appreciation and transparency. To me, the key seems to be the energy the message was written with, not the actual words themselves.
I think you could write the exact same sentence to two different people and one would be an initiation and the other would not be. What would make the difference?
One would carry the energetic charge of some kind of attachment to an outcome, some kind of anticipated fulfilment of the agenda your mind was crafting the message with, rooted in your undefined centers. The other would carry the charge of non-attachment, a simple voicing of appreciation for your friend, without the pressure for them to even reply or respond to it. Color Motivation Transference is a tool that you can use to recognize one from the other in the act of writing.
What state of mind are you in? What energy motivates your communication?
Roxana, in your case, were you in an emotionally clear place within yourself? Were you motivated by intelligent Need or blind fear?
From my personal experience, Color Motivation Transference can show up with varying degrees of intensity, from very subtle craving to full-blown desperation. In any case, when it shows up and we act on it, we’re tapping directly into the Not-Self strategies of our undefined centers.
So, through the undefined G’s endless search for love, identity and direction, was your mind worried about losing this person in your life?
Was your mind craving for the Life Energy of the Sacral to be turned on again?
Did the other person give your undefined Heart external validation of self-worth to boost your mental self-esteem?
Or were you feeling mentally anxious or bored looking for someone inspiring to focus on?
Maybe it’s someone special who just seems to draw out this incredible information from you that not everyone does.
For Split Definitions like you and me, our minds might be motivated to try and find a bridge that connects the islands of our Definition together. It’s likely that the person you were texting is someone who bridges your wide split, making you feel more whole when you are together with them.
In a state of blind fear I assume there can be a confusion about other people. The mind can start to obsess about survival risks, attaching to others in order to find security. You might experience mental worry about losing the bond you have, not wanting to make any mistakes. Or you might not know whether you can trust other people and get lost in alienation, too afraid of everything.
Correctly motivated, on the other hand, it could be good to let your partners know how important they are to you.
To share a bit from my experience: in some relationships, people have very explicitly invited me to feel free to engage with them as I please. In other relationships, I can feel the expectation from the other for me to initiate them, but without any recognition or invitation towards me to actually do so. I can notice disappointment in them that I’m always waiting for them to make the first move, and my mind thinks ‘I should’ initiate something with them in order to maintain the bond, but there’s no genuine energy in me moving in that direction. So, I think the relational context sets the stage for how much freedom a Projector can have in how they interact.
To me, particularly as a Wide Split Definition, what does matter is to express the real difference someone’s presence makes in my life. To have a secure bond it is important that we are aware of what it’s built upon – without that being a burden or an expectation.
Having said this, I also find that this open freedom to engage does not always provide my Projected Channels the energy to actually show up. Perhaps these beings love to have me around and interact with me, but don’t actually recognize me for any of my specialties. Perhaps I don’t need to be saving the day with everyone all the time 24/7 either. These are things I also wonder and am learning about. We’re all walking paradoxes trying to find our balance between this and that.
My sense is that it's the invitation that energizes the Projected Channel to function correctly. When there is a correct invitation, there is something specific - there is a context with your name on it ready to receive your input.
There is an aliveness waiting for your guidance. It isn’t random, it’s a body specifically calling for yours, it’s the wider ecosystem asking you to fulfil the role you were designed for so that life and consciousness can continue to evolve.
As I’m writing, the Definitive Book is lying open on page 354. It shows Gate 11: Peace – Ideas. Many people have ‘ideas’ in their minds about what they would like to do and who they would like to do it with...
But the secret of this Gate is that these ideas are not for manifesting into action, they are simply there to share and stimulate us - and this will have an effect, but not necessarily the actual realization of that particular idea into physical form or experience.
I’ve noticed many people in my social circles feeling so powerless because their ideas are never fulfilled. They think they have this great idea and they just need to find the right person who will value it and provide the energy to make it happen – and it never does. They may take a few steps in that direction until the creativity falls flat and they feel slightly frustrated, bitter, disappointed or even angry that it just didn’t work out again.
My reasoning here is that those ideas are top-down impositions from the mind that are not rooted in any local physical context or situation at hand – they won’t evoke a generative response to make them happen. They are inspired by the past and give rise to beliefs and stories.
The 3rd Line of this Gate, the material Line, is called ‘The realist: The acknowledgment that peace is transitory’. Its exaltation says: ‘The realization that ideas come and go’. Its detriment says: ‘A pleasure in ideas that have no real application’.
Our 3rd Line process here is not about materializing the idea through trial and error, it’s about finding peace in the realization that these stimulating ideas are beautiful as such and don’t need to be carried out – even when we feel bored or conflicted about life.
So why am I talking about Gate 11? Because it highlights to me an important concept: relevance and irrelevance. Only when something is relevant to the movement of Life Force will it be enlivened by the call.
We have many ideas about where we think we’re going, what we might do together, and so on. Our imagination may be filled with beauty, but ultimately it is the unfolding process of the form that actually materializes. We don’t make it happen, we are it happening as we witness it.
Yet I think that many of our common interactions with people - the subtle text messages, the emoticons and gifs we use, the ways in which we stimulate each other with memes and ideas - can be these small nudges of trying to push life into the direction of an idea we hope to see fulfilled. An idea that in the end is irrelevant to the life process – especially when it arises out of a mind in Transference.
Whatever it all might be, in the end, may not matter very much. If you know the Design of the person you were texting you could make a few connections and perhaps learn an interesting thing or two about yourself. But the importance here would be to find clarity about your own inner state of mind, as the conditioning reverberates through your openness. The same would apply to any other kind of ordinary interaction that we could easily take for granted.
Roxana, to be able to recognize subtle forms of initiation and misinforming hidden behind ordinary gestures and communication, all you really need is to watch your mind and recognize its condition. Then notice if it’s pushing you to act spontaneously while disregarding your emotional wave and how you genuinely feel, ignoring what you have actually been recognized and invited for in that relationship.
According to what I’ve learned in Laveena’s classes, this may take more deconditioning time for you as a Quad Right Variable. This is because your Right brain needs to be fed correct nutrition for a longer period of time in order to function optimally again.
(The same would be true for any other Variable with a Right brain. So for anyone else reading, grab a chart that shows you the arrows of your Variable next to the head. If your upper left red arrow points to the Right, then you've got a Right brain too.)
Remember that Transference is not something bad or wrong, it’s a natural process of learning through observation. It is not something that you are doing, it is not something that you need to get right. It’s something that happens as a consequence of how your environment, and the beings in it, impact you.
As you said in your message, you’re experiencing more and more how these things work for you and that’s all this is really about, no?
To be able to live life this way with enough self-love to embrace the whole experience, watching ourselves grow in awareness on this journey through space – isn’t that the greatest gift?
Enjoy your movie,
Hagen
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The Relationship between the Human Design Channels of Charisma and Structuring
In this video, I describe the Relationship between the Human Design Channels of Charisma, 43-20 and Structuring, 43-23 and touch briefly on the genetic similarity of gates next to each other.
New to the Human Design System? You Should Probably Give Up Now
Hi, this is Laveena. I’m updating this article I wrote for Jovian exactly 4 years ago, and specifically writing to those of you who are new to Human Design, yet deep into the Human Design Experiment, within your first 3.5 years.
Perhaps you’ve seen the not-self mind chatter with awareness, and in the beginning of recognizing your design’s conditioning, been horrified, or in awe, at how precisely Human Design can track your mind’s running commentary about the life experience you are in.
If you believe the story inside your head about yourself, you are identified with who you are not. If this is still the case, can I ask your conditioned mind a question?
Are you ready to Surrender?
Just give up right now.
As a 3/5 Profile; a "Martyr/Heretic" learning through inevitable mistakes, I found the yammering of mind can be very hard to ignore in the first half of my first 7 years. The “Not-Self” seems to take a long time to tame in the beginning. Not-Self is a term we use to describe deeply conditioned behaviors as a result of our response to the energies of others and the neutrino transit program we encounter every moment of every day.
Your not-self mind is so very powerful.
Without awareness, it's a nightmare that you don't even realize you are dreaming in.
And with awareness?
Well, sometimes it can be even more horrid to observe. Imagine realizing the dream you are in is a nightmare - and your eyes are wide open. While no matter what you do, you just can't seem to wake yourself up.
Please allow me to illustrate this point with a story wherein perhaps you can identify with what this is like. Would you like to hear about one of my biggest turning points?
I remember as a child growing up, I took every failure as proof that there was something wrong with me, perhaps missing or broken. Just a function of mechanics in my design (3rd line personality, undefined heart, head and sacral with 3rd lines as well).
In the middle of taking my first Human Design Class, Living Your Design the first time in 2013, I experienced my first profound “shattering” of the not-self mind. I broke down crying in grief when we got to the heart center. Because my tape-recording inside my head about myself was I can’t do anything right, nobody loves me, there’s something wrong with me and after that first release I could finally see the conditioning at play. Later I remember making a “mistake” in relationship with my boyfriend at the grocery store, where I found myself saying in desperation out loud - “I can’t do anything right.” All of a sudden my hand flew to cover my mouth, my eyes went wide open with shock, and I had the first conscious moment of realization in seeing my not-self mind at work! Now I knew exactly where it came from, and that it was absolutely NOT the truth.
Until you follow your Strategy and Authority in decision-making consistently, all the Human Design education you can handle does you no good. Until you live your Design, education means nothing. Until you "Just Do It" - which ironically in most cases begins with a strategy of waiting for life to come to you rather than initiating - you'll never get to live the uniqueness that you were designed to be.
Oh, I've seen this first-hand, how very hard it is to stay committed and focused on your experiment. "But... but... but; I want, I need, I have to; I should do this, I should do that; I’ve gotta make it happen, mine, mine, mine...." Good grief, how bossy our busy not-self mind can be! How can you not think, want, need, and be passionate about everything your mind thought you've always wanted or wanted to be??!
Only a very small percentage of the people who come to Human Design are likely to take it to the furthest extent possible. Ra said 4% of 4% of the population could live this. It is a fact that, even if you can’t live this knowledge, you can still benefit from increasing your awareness and using the tools to come to grips with the challenges you are living in this reality. It took me years to unravel the false belief system of something wrong with me that held me back from accepting, honoring and loving myself unconditionally.
Really, this knowledge is for children. To help parents guide their little ones to be empowered so that they can make decisions for themselves, as themselves. In the coming years, especially after 2027 when our background frequency shifts, you'll see how terribly important it is that this knowledge is passed along to our kids as soon as possible.
Whether or not you follow the original version of this knowledge as delivered by Ra and certified analysts; or if you get pulled into one of the offshoots of Human Design, or whatever else you find works for you.... either way, it's all ok. We all have our own “fractals” of people we are here for. And we are all here for certain others in our journey.
If you're an adult locked deep in the illusion of Maia (the mire of mind’s illusions!), likely you are someone who won't make it to full differentiation. If ever one had the chance to though, the fact that you are reading this tells me something about you - you’re on my fractal, and I know that’s where I’m heading. Who knows whether we will make it there? That’s really not the point.
When you wake up you realize that your path, your process, is perfect, exactly as we are. The joy is in the journey and the destination is NOT under our control. We get what we get, and it's all ok. Really.
Whether you end up living out your uniqueness and purpose in life, or simply reduce the suffering that comes from trying to be what you are not, you have “no choice” to change the design. All in all, your life can be positively impacted when you experiment with your Human Design.
Though, your mind may not like it. Nope, not one bit!
I'm not telling you all this to deter you from experimenting with Human Design or "trying to wake up" though trying really is futile. Yes, I do want to share that no matter how hard you may study or try, it won't help. Again, you get what you get, and it's all okay. You're not in control of any of that, and I hope to explain why in a bit.
I know that if you are new to design, likely your mind is going to compare your design to others. Your mind is very good at measuring - how does your design look or function compared to theirs? How long have they been experimenting with following their design compared to you?
Your conditioned mind likely will have design envy, wishing you had this or that channel, this or that center, this or that gate, this or that profile instead of the one you have. Your mind may immediately ask if there's anything that can be done to change your design, or - this one is common - how you can become a Manifestor (Innovator in BG5 terms) if you weren't born as one.
You're likely going to feel totally overwhelmed at first when you join the social networking groups, wondering what the heck 98% of the conversations are talking about most of the time.
All the while, as you learn about your design, something is whispering deep inside you; "This might be the solution. Human Design just might be the thing that helps me fix what must be wrong with me. Human Design just might help me get control of my life once and for all. Human Design just might help me become the person I always wanted to be."
Prepare for those expectations to be shattered in an unexpected way.
Website after website, you may find that you search the internet like a gold-crazed treasure hunter, looking for details on the Human Design system and reading all the books you can find.
Article after article, audio after audio, video after video, something becomes clearer and clearer the longer you immerse yourself in the words of Ra Uru Hu. The more you expose yourself to his frequency and that of the people you resonate with who share the spark of Human Design with the world, you watch the evidence mount to support one unbelievable concept.
Slowly, this one thing stands out, that when first came upon was laughed at and dismissed immediately... if it didn't turn you off to Human Design completely.
Two small, simple words that no one would believe if they didn't see the evidence day in and day out of the complete and absolute truth:
No Choice.
"No Choice, said the Voice," was the first time I'd seen those words in reply to one of my posts on social media. It flew in the face of something I'd been deeply conditioned to believe. And that was the concept of Free Will and all the related beliefs I'd attached to in the homogenized world.
What do you mean, no choice? I wondered. How on earth could that be possible?
Sometimes, something comes along that makes your whole world turn upside down.
Like when Pythagoras called the earth round when everyone accepted that our world was flat. Or a more recent discovery that light doesn’t always travel at the speed of light. Or when you come to Human Design and discover that we don't have free will. That free will, like everything else here on this plane, does not work the way we think it does and that your personality’s apparent control of your life experience is just an illusion.
When you come to Human Design, you don't tend to experiment with it unless you are committed to making a change. You may do it because you want something... something different. You may feel there must be more to life than suffering, and so you experiment, you observe, you study the world from this new perspective.
Sometimes, you can watch as your whole world seems to be falling apart at the seams (while wondering how it was possible to fall further from grace). How do you know what to trust when everything you'd spent a lifetime giving authority to before wasn't dependable for getting you where you wanted to be?
Life being a journey, not a destination... well, whatever happens, happens. Fate steps in and throws the monkey wrench in your plans. Sometimes things can be so confusing as you decondition that your mind may find it often wishes you had never, ever heard of Human Design. I’m serious! You can’t unlearn this stuff, because now you’re aware of your own mechanics. Oh, how powerful the not-self mind can be, arguing for it’s control over your life!
How can you let go of control of your life? By coming to the cellular realization that you never had it to begin with; that you are not here to be in control of anything outside of you. The realization that who you think you are not in control of anything inside of you, either. That all you as a conscious personality are here to do is... enjoy the ride your body takes you on and watch the movie of your life.
Most of us are trapped in a case of mis-identification with the conditioning of our mind. Ra calls this “gas of the brain” ie farts. Think about it. Like stomach gas, your mind is inconsistent, comes and goes based on what you’re digesting from life, it rumbles and grumbles inside of you, and when it takes action it often stinks!
Let's consider that we are all made up of vibrating matter. Each of us operating like tuning forks, each of us imprinted by the neutrino ocean with a certain Human Design, a "song" if you will. You are an orchestra that plays a symphony designed to be utterly unique.
Ra Uru Hu stated after his encounter with the Voice that the neutrino, a subatomic particle, had mass - that science later proved. The information imprinted within us by these neutrinos tells a detailed story describing the energy that imprinted us at two critical moments, showing up as definition in your Human Design bodygraph.
The definition created by this energy is what you can reliably trust to make decisions in life. Tuning into this energy by experimenting with your strategy and authority is at the core of your discovery of the benefit that Human Design can offer you.
See, all of us are deeply in the thrall of the "program" - the neutrino ocean flavored by the gates influencing us via the planets that those neutrinos flow through endlessly. Those neutrinos are bombarding our openness with what to feel, what to breathe, what to be.
Helpless in the sea of neutrinos which program us, we behave in ways that we aren't even aware of unless we know our design. We make mistakes and learn what we can dependably trust, that place within or the process it takes for us to rely upon when navigating the constant choices that are presented to us daily.
Yep, I said it. "Choices." And yet, who we think we are, truly has no choice.
Choiceless? You bet we are. Choiceless in the thrall of the transit field, the neutrino program, the illusion of the Maia; choiceless to live your design - either as true self or not-self or some varying combination of the two. We are all filtering the neutrino program, helplessly living and dying on the Stage of Life in the Play of the Program.
The beauty of Human Design is that it gives you a map of the forces at work within you. It offers a way to be true to the unique imprinting bestowed upon you by the program; the energy that is consistently and reliably at work within you determining your uniqueness.
What's the way? Strategy and Authority. It's all about decision-making. There's no need to take this on faith; try it for yourself and see.
Look, maybe you'll be someone like me, a 3rd line Profile, who constantly makes mistakes and falls. Hard. Flat on your face. Like a toddler just learning how to walk without holding onto things - who runs smack into the coffee table and shrieks in pain for the next half hour.
But, you know what? For many people it takes making those dang mistakes, sometimes over and over again, to figure out how to follow Strategy and Authority. To recognize the signposts that are there to guide you along your path. To know when it's best to wait and appreciate your life for what it is - not how your mind thinks it should be.
Sometimes the best lessons learned are "mistakes."
Here, take a deep breath and imagine you're on a loud movie set between takes. I want you to see the film crew, hear the actors talking and feel those hot lights they're all standing underneath. Smell the sweat from too many bodies together in a room. "Quiet on the set!" yells someone and a guy in black comes over in front of the camera. I want you to picture a movie clapper board, with "take three" written in chalk on it. "Miss-takes" that we make are often the best way to learn and are how we eventually get it right. Close your eyes a moment and let that sink in as you let go of trying to avoid mistakes.
Just knowing that we are not in control, that we can't help what we go through or how, can make all the difference in the world.
So what if maybe you won't "wake up" in the "enlightened-guru-sitting on-a-mountaintop-with-no-food-levitating-and-spouting-wise-crap" that people repeat endlessly from those who traveled far and wide to hear for themselves. Following your Strategy and Authority changes your perspective and, therefore, your experience of life and your life itself. Things can be way, way different and more correct for you than they are now. Your life is not about expectations or what you do. It's about experiences and who you be.
You aren't broken. There's nothing wrong with you. And that person you always thought you wanted to be?
Choiceless.
So tell your mind just to give up already. Do yourself and everyone around you a favor - let the body live its life.
Written by Laveena Archers, originally published on JovianArchive.com in May of 2015 as Andrea Abay-Abay
Andrea is a 3/5 Emotional Projector and Jovian's PR & Social Media butterfly. She has the pleasure of writing and creating Human Design System content since 2014.
She’s a certified Human Design Professional Living Your Design Guide Trainer, BG5 Consultant, Human Design Analyst and Foundations Teacher. Laveena spent the majority of her life buried in self-help and self-improvement books and courses, mixed in with a healthy dose of trial-and-error discoveries of what doesn't work. Human Design was something she found that finally worked!
Laveena has a fondness for beauty in nature and expressing creativity. She fills most of her time away from the screen hiking while taking nature pictures, playing with her daughter, and listening to Human Design lectures by Ra Uru Hu.
The Art of Being A Projector
There are four different kinds of human auras on this planet. Manifestor (Innovator Career Type), Generator (Builder Career Type), Projector (Advisor Career Type) , and Reflector (Evaluator Career Type).
These names were given by Ra to describe the essence of the Aura Types and the way these four different types of humans operate.
"The Aura IS you." Ra Uru Hu
How you function in the world is based upon this one essential quality that you cannot control, and that is, the way your Aura operates. Learning how to be yourself as a Projector requires you to shed the pressure of eons of generational behavior and 80% of the populations' conditioning to behave in a way that is deeply unhealthy for us. Are you ready to breakthrough your mind's addiction to being seen for who you are not, and start living the sweet success that you were really born for?
There is a way for each Type to function correctly - that is, in alignment, with reduced resistance, in harmony with life.
Human Design Manifestor Auras have an Initiating frequency and practice the art of Informing - considering the impact of their decisions and informing those others who are impacted so that peace is experienced in their world.
Human Design Generator Auras have an availability frequency and practice the art of Responding - waiting for that unmistakable response of their sacral center that knows what it can commit to and when to find satisfaction in doing.
Human Design Reflector Auras have a teflon quality and practice the art of Evaluating - patiently waiting while sampling different people and environments throughout the moon's cycle to make a decision, and experiencing the surprise in life.
Projectors have a Dilemma
"The dilemma for the Projector is that because the Projector is new on this plane as a form type, they have a lot to learn. Having a lot to learn is a big story. It's a very big story.
This is the whole pressure now that is on Projectors that if they're not prepared, if they don't have the knowledge that is necessary for them, that they get steamrolled. They get rolled over by the energy forces that they've emerged out of. It’s sort of a nice bookend with the Reflector up there and the Projector down there, it really is. It’s this full movement, and in this full movement getting ready to complete this process.
So the better that Projectors are equipped to be able to articulate what they see in the other, what they see in a system, the system, any system is enormously important for the completion of this process.
Manifestors aren't interested, Generators are looking in on themselves, and if they're not-self, they don't see anything. So, there's a tremendous amount of pressure on the Projector as a force to guide beings.
When I say that, I don’t mean that personally. It’s an energy that’s in the world. It is a conditioning force in the world. So, the presence of Projector has already changed the way in which we look at things. That is, if you take a look at the way in which intellectually we've developed since 1781 that we’ve gone in two directions deeper and deeper and deeper inward and deeper outward. This is the result of the Projector.
The emergence of the Projector is also the emergence of the scientific revolution. It is the emergence of the modern world, not personal, if you want to pat yourself on the back you can." Ra Uru Hu
In this article, I hope to engage you with some education on the art of being a Projector.
That art is the Art of Recognizing.
Like all of the Arts, the key to perfecting is to practice. And in Human Design, we all have in common something to practice.
Do you know what that something is? Yup, you guessed it. Following our Strategy and Authority.
For adult Projectors, this is one of the most difficult things for us to do.
Because we are designed to be conditioned, and our waiting is primarily about the big things in life, it takes a focused determination and dedication to live our designs. As much as we've worked on ourselves and studied every system on the planet, it really takes seven years of deconditioning to begin to live life as ourselves. Cellular renewal takes time.
Hey, if you’re new to design and burnt out, stressed, overwhelmed and exhausted, take heart. I remember being right where you are 7 years ago and my body, health, relationships, life was a DISASTER. I know you can get through this. Stick with the Human Design program and experiment. Don’t give up. You can do this.
Projectors are the Most Complex Auric Type
Projectors are very complex beings, with so many different arrangements of possible definitions that can combine to make us who we are in the world. Being the “youngest” or “newest” of the Types, as we only started appearing on this planet in 1781, we are here for a very particular purpose.
We are here to Guide. Recognizing what guidance and when by waiting for the invitation and checking with our Authority first, protects us from the deep bitterness that we experience when we act prematurely and are failed to be properly recognized for our gifts.
A Projector’s Aura is the only one that penetrates into the core of the other, and in this way regularly exposes itself to the deepest kind of conditioning. Within this functioning lies the source of our Projector gift - to recognize how energy should be used.
Projector Recognition is a Two-Way Street
This gift of Recognition moves in two directions. Not only are Projectors gifted with the ability to recognize, we are given attributes that are designed to be recognized. We are magnetic beings, designed to attract attention. It is the frequency of our Aura that draws someone who sees and recognizes us for the particular qualities we carry and thereby invite our guidance into their lives.In fulfilling that recognition, we find our signature of success.
When we are operating correctly, we'll be recognized correctly and find that success. How do you know when you are operating correctly?
The key for a Projector to find success in life is to have a mastery of a system. In Human Design, it is important for you to recognize the “signposts” or clues that you are either on or off your path to fulfillment.
Are you consistently feeling bitterness or success?
Bitterness is like the bumps on the side of the road that tell you you’re off your path.
Do you know what your motivation is or the signs of transference?
“Um, what?” you say?
If you’ve been experimenting with Strategy and Authority, getting the hang of it, how about diving deeper into how you’re here to see your own Psychology at work. It’s not rocket science, and it is a key to a Projector Seeing. If you know your motivation/transference, are you watching for these signposts of your mind's control over your decision-making process?
These are tools the Human Design System makes available to us that are invaluable for informing our Projector process of Awakening to our true nature.
The trouble with most adult Projectors is, we have been deeply homogenized and conditioned from birth. Highly susceptible to the pressures to act like the Manifestors or Generators that our parents wanted us to be, we don’t know how to let go of all that and allow ourselves to just be Projectors.
So how do you "be" a Projector? Many of us are deeply enmeshed in a life we are not well suited for, on the edge of exhaustion and burnout, bitter about the jobs, mortgages and commitments that drain us. How do we live our designs?
It all comes back to Strategy and Authority. Only you can take this journey, when you are ready, and you take it alone. This doesn’t mean you have to be lonely. When we Projectors interact with and guide each other, we can be brilliant mirrors for each other in any kind of partnership - Parent/Child, Student/Teacher, Friends, Lovers, Business, etc.
As Projectors, we need to learn to wait for the recognition that we are designed for. Remember you can invite each other as a Projector use your Authority!
No matter WTF the excuse is
that your mind inside your head is telling you,
THAT’S NOT YOU
or why you should decide ANYTHING.
Projectors have the gift of being able to master systems, and are perfectly equipped to Guide in accordance with the particular characteristics unique to their chart. So it follows that Human Design would be an excellent system to master for those Projectors who are invited and follow their authority to study it.
As a Projector, right after I had my second reading, I downsized my lifestyle and let go of everything extraneous to study Human Design. No car. No cell phone. No eating out, no new clothes. Went completely minimal. Just studied and took classes for years (and still studying to this day).
Why? Because I was invited to. Then I recognized Human Design as an accurate, powerful and practical system that helps people to realize their unique potential. Life did not smooth out immediately, and I know sometimes I studied for not-self reasons, we all do.
"If you are really a Projector, everybody, who ever gets to know you, at some level or another will resent the fact that you are good at it. Because if you really are a good projector, boy do you slide. Things just come your way. They are just there. Everybody else is struggling for this and that, and you are just, its just there. And you see, you don’t get that until you are 100% ready to see if it’s there.
It’s the most difficult thing about being a projector because you are so deeply conditioned, that’s its just so difficult to just let go and start from scratch. Because you got all this stuff that you are hooked on. And all of this stuff that you think, because you are very connected to the way in which life on the planet is organized. In other words you are designed to have a specific relationship to the other, to groups, all of those things. But of course you can never develop that as long as you are like them. As long as you are not what you are. Only when you are really ready to be a projector I mean really ready to be a projector will you see, that it is all there for you.
Otherwise you don’t get to slide, you don’t. You really don’t, and that’s what your life is about. You are not tied down by generating and manifesting. They have rule and their rules are heavy rules. They have their own trip. Its not who you are, you are here to recognize. If you look at the energy on the planet and the way the energy is used by the planet, everybody knows even a simpleton, there is something wrong. You don’t have to be a political scientist to understand that there is something wrong in the way that all of this is working.
…any idiot can figure that out. But the reality is that the only way energy will be organized is if it is organized by Projectors. That’s what projectors are for. The dilemma is that they are not like me. They are not Manifestors that say “pay attention or fuck off.” Because you can’t do that as a projector, you can’t, they will beat you up, they will hurt you. So don’t ever do that let Manifestors do that.
So the dilemma is that you actually have to wait for them. Think about it, because when you think about it, it’s really wild. You have to wait for them to ask you to beat them up. You know what I mean? You have to wait for them to invite you to be in charge. You have to wait for them to ask you to do this and that so that they can get their energy trip together. See that’s the difference.
I tried to give you a sense of how profound your aura is, how powerful your aura is but you have to see something about aura. Your aura communicates. It does, it communicates. It communicates essential things. It is communicating your design to the other being. So let’s say you are a projector that has some tribal activation and obviously there is a part of you that can guide the way energy works in those environments. It’s in your aura. Its not like you have to put your hand up in the air and say I have got the 40-37 and I am a Projector. Do not do that, it is there. And if they don’t pick it up. So what? They are never going to be for you. Remember again you can’t get into “I missed it,” business." Ra Uru Hu
At this point of being in my 7th year, I know I’ve got a handle on the basics of design, because I’ve been learning to live as I teach them for years now. I’ve not only seen but FELT what this experiment can do to myself and to others. Good lord, I know so many people who are so relieved even just going through the first baby steps of design, it’s enormous what a difference living this knowledge makes over time!
I hope to continue to develop a deeper mastery of Human Design because I’ve tested it and found it to be correct for me. It supports a lifestyle that allows me to be a Projector - a specialist Advisor for short periods of time. I know it to be rewarding, revitalizing and renewing. I see the hope it's brought to myself and the people I know who've experimented with it, and I love empowering and sharing that hope with the world!
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The Projector Needs Support
"The dilemma for the Projector is that in order for them to master anything they need support. They’re not an energy type. They're not. The Generator works itself through college; the Projector needs a scholarship. I know that sounds lousy if you’re a Generator. But it’s just about simply understanding mechanics. It’s just mechanics.
And of course, what happens to Projectors is they don't necessarily have that. So you end up with a Projector and Generator who are siblings in a family, the Generator goes out and does that work and goes to school. The Projector has to do exactly the same thing. The problem is the Projector gets ill; the Projector has problems in school. Eventually, the Projector drops out because they just can’t hack it. They just can’t, because they need the support.
It's all about understanding just the very basic mechanisms. And you look at them and you see what you can do for somebody. And of course, one of the things about the Projector is that when they are correct, they attract those benefactors. This is something that is very important." Ra Uru Hu
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Projector, you are Needed!
There is no one more needed to be awake and aware than the Projector, as the guides of our energy.
Projector or not, I invite you all to begin or continue your study of Human Design in earnest, to share this knowledge with those who are ready to live out their true nature.
Everyone deserves a chance to live out their uniqueness. Regardless of Type, Human Design shows us the way home, to perfect “The Art of Being" ourselves.
*The above article minus the Ra quotes was originally published on Jovian Archive in 2015, home of the human design system. Updated and republished with permission.
Real-Life Human Design Projector Question:
"How do I get people to pay me for advising them?"
My Human Design Projector Advice:
Please consider that we as Projectors are all about guiding through asking the right laser focused questions.
Has anyone ever asked you a question that cut straight to the core of the issue? Have you ever done the same for someone else? Seen the BIG PICTURE view and narrowed down to the absolute essential nature of what needs to be addressed to get to the heart of the matter and bring things to light?
This is a brilliant example of how Projectors advise.
Question asking is the most powerful thing you can master as a Projector. Yet it must come naturally, you need to see the relevance and how to help Others see what you see, big picture down to small relevant detail.
Now, can you look at the question asked above “How do I get people to pay me for advising them?” and see, that what you are asking is framed from the perspective of "What can I get from someone else?" or "How can I get someone else to do what I want them to do?"
This framework of seeing the other as someone who can do something for you, rather than, what can I do for Others is one of the biggest lessons I learned in my early 20's from a mentor who was the head of a huge national commercial real estate company.
On his home desk in his Hawaii location, he had a placard. It had one word in bold letters.
Here in the states, when you go into businesses, you will often see inspirational posters with words like "SUCCESS" and "ACHIEVEMENT" and "COMMITMENT" and "DEDICATION." Yet there is one word that is more powerful than all those words because it encompasses why we (Projectors) are here to do what we do.
As a Projector, that word is what we focus on naturally, with no effort. It is our Wu Wei (Wu wei refers to the cultivation of a state of being in which our actions are quite effortlessly in alignment with the ebb and flow of the elemental cycles of the natural world). Simply being in a room with another person, we focus on them.
The secret to my mentors' success was one word that he focused on daily.
That word was "OTHERS"
"Projectors need more than any other Type to understand the power of their aura. The Projector's aura is very specific. It is a bio-energetic field that can be felt across a room, and it is coded to a certain very distinct frequency. Anyone who is not attuned to that specific frequency will never really notice the Projector, and anyone who is attuned to their frequency cannot help but pick them out across a crowded room.
"he Projector's aura is magical. Not only does it ensure that they will get exactly the right recognition and draw it towards them, but also it serves to protect them.
Anyone who is not naturally drawn into the Projector's aura is not going to be healthy for them.
All the Projector really has to do is sit back and wait to see who comes forward and who does not." Ra Uru Hu
Now, how can we reframe the question “How do I get people to pay me for advising them?”
Can you see how the energy shifts within you as you contemplate this when we rephrase the question to:
"How can I fulfill my Projector purpose of Advising Others for Success?”
Now, I'd like to invite you to take a deep breath and see how that feels settling into your Projector body, your precious vehicle with no consistent access to either Generation or Manifestation.
We are designed to be wise about these things, all of us Projectors here, in our own unique way. There is no shortage of people on our fractal simply waiting for us to appear in their lives for us to mutually Recognize. Vibrationally, we need to be in a state where our Aura is “seen” by them first. When the student is ready (US) the teacher appears (THEM). As a totally open Ajna and a Right Brain/Mind, I know nothing without my students and life experience asking of me.
We can guide particular people, in right timing, once we have a system of study we have Mastered. You won't need to get anyone to do anything, because in truth, you cannot. That is why the way you framed the question may have felt disempowering and frustrating.
It is the most natural thing in the world for us Projectors to have deep penetrating conversations with Others that serves to Advise and Guide them. The Success of Others is how we gain meaningful personal Success.
I would not have the Success I enjoy without the guidance and support of my Projector partner, or the Generators who have invited me over the years to guide them in thier work.
SEE THE OTHER CLEARLY
You can only help Others to see what they themselves know needs to be done, and the how is our gift.
Now, in the Guidance aspect, as an Advisor who has studied HD deeply, including BG5, OC16 and Rave Psychology, I know what I have seen work in my own life and in the lives of those I Serve. I would like to share that below in a moment.
Back to the question: "How can I fulfill my Projector purpose of Advising Others?"
My suggestion is to look at your own life now and recognize: where are you already Advising others? What do Others ask of you?
Begin with what you know. This is the most Practical piece of Advice I can give you. In the beginning of my experiment, after being invited in, and feeling it out for a few months, I quit my miserable job at the time, sold everything I had of any value, studied until I ran out of money and began a coaching practice with what I already knew.
I wish someone would have told me what I am about to tell you.... I know it can help you learn how to move to a greater level of personal fulfillment more quickly than my years of intense study and trial-and-error.
I would like to outline 5 steps to Advisor Success when facing your question above:
1) Get clear on WHO YOU ARE HERE FOR: Wait for Recognition and Invitation!
Knowing WHO you are here to Serve and WHAT they're CHALLENGED BY:
To help my OTHERS recognize their OTHERS, I describe their Nodes for them, particularly where and how they themselves are designed to see because this is where they can fulfill their purpose. I integrate the current Life Cycle Nodal themes as applicable.
2) Know WHY you’re here on Earth:
To do this with my clients, I consult with them to synthesize their life experience up to this point, their Incarnation cross, profile, Type and current Life Cycle they are in, then we give it over to their Authority to decide.
3) Know HOW you are here to Profit (Receive Money) from your eventual Wisdom through helping OTHERS:
To help my clients see where they have the most Profit potential, I look at their undefined Centers and synthesize what I know about the design and cycles, them and their life up to this point, and then ask questions to help them see the relative goldmine of wisdom that they already have access to. This can be seen in the dormant gate potentials and their material application.
*Now that we know WHO you are here to Serve, WHY you are here, WHAT challenges your OTHERS are facing and HOW you are here to help advise them, all that remains is addressing your fears that are holding you back and attracting their attention to what you have to offer.*
4) Take what you already know, applied through the framework above, and educate your Others about what you know, WHEN you are invited, from the perspective of how you are designed to be Motivated in alignment with how it can solve their biggest challenges and reasons why they are asking for Guidance.
All Projectors have their own unique way of teaching, leading and guiding that is unique to their design. I am a creative role model of this. I weave what I've learned about what works and what doesn't throughout my work along with my Personal Perspective of my life experience, which is what I've seen work for me. Most of my clients find me on YouTube. I publish videos of me teaching what I know, in hopes of inspiring others through times of growth and change. It works.
5) Help OTHERS to SUCCESS, only the ones who have asked you, who recognize and invite you, in alignment with your own Authority
When I feel emotional clarity that I can make a knowing, creative contribution from my recognition of feelings, my personal perspective and I feel hopeful about what I share, I do. This is what has been correct for me as a 3/5 Cross of Contagion with my design.
The more you actually Help Others, creating your value through recognizing their value, supporting thier process as correct for you both, the more they recognize you for how you can help THEM. And that, my Projector kin, is what has worked to support the growth of my personal practice. I have a business that gives me the freedom to live anywhere in the world and do what brings me JOY as I advise and help others be successful. It all begins with Living YOUR Design.
It is my hope that this sharing has helped not only you, my friends, I hope it has also empowered anyone else who is looking for guidance on how to fulfill their purpose and feels lost about what to do.
Just BE.
Be you.
Live your Design.
In joy,
Laveena
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Projector Success Secrets Webinar Training Excerpt
So if you're looking at the secrets for success for a projector, first things first, you've got a master system. If you have mastery of that system, why would anybody come to you for guidance? So mastery of the system study is first and foremost, that absolutely must be your top priority. The best investment you have in this life is not anything you own. It's right here, in your development of your personal potential to master a system and to guide others. So in order to recognize which one to go into and who you have to wait for the outside world reality to come to you first. Now, I tell you something. This gives you a lot of power because it means anybody that's not actually coming and knocking at your door. It's not your trip. You do not have to go chase after people. In fact, that gives you a lot less power when it comes to negotiating things when it comes to them honoring you for what you have to give.
Just think of it like this. Remember back in the day when we had kings and Queens and people would come and ask, they would ask for an audience. Imagine it like that. People need to ask for an audience with you and when they ask, invite, who has the power you do, you have the power and you need to use your gifts, your skills, your talent, and your way of seeing things to see if they recognize you for you and what you have to give projectors. Most of them have really big picture views, really broad perspectives that can see all the way down to the details. There's a lot of different ways that we are here to function. We are here to master our human environment and perfect that human environment, and so the biggest way we do that is discernment. What are your superpowers? What are your super strengths?
What are your super skills? The definition in your chart, the areas between those two colored in centers, whatever that channel happens to be, that's your super power. That's your gift. That's your skill. So how do you honor that? You stay away from making decisions out in the openness and you use that openness as wisdom. When you're partnered with another person, you make sure that you guide others to their authority by using an honoring your authority first and leading by example. We absolutely must do that for ourselves and for others guys and again, delegate. It's not for you to do everything yourself. No projector is an island. We're not here to be the team of one. A projector is always about a team of two, you and that other person in your life, in that moment, whoever it is that you're focusing on, so one of the things that we need to get really good at is learning how to ask questions, not leading questions.
"I see that you need to do this", so I'm going to ask "can you do this?" No. Go into questions that help that person align with who they are for themselves, if they're a Generator. Who they are for others, if they're a Projector. Help ask those questions. Give them your perspective. In right timing, we're recognized and invited. For me, when emotionally clear I can ask a question that unlocks the visible, energy that's there for the other person to see and that's so valuable and beneficial for other people. So the other success secret I want to pass onto you is taking care of yourself. I remember that was one of the challenges that we have here in the room right now is how do we take care of yourself first, how do you take care of yourself so that you're not drained by others? Well, I like to think of myself as a, as a pro athlete.
There's certain things that a professional athlete will absolutely take care of their body every single day, even if they're not training. They're resting consciously, mindfully, intentionally. So taking care of ourselves isanother big success secret. And again, I already mentioned if you're working with people one on one, that's where your super power, your super strength is every single one of those channels, with the exception of four of them, are designed to empower or share or support with that other person one person at a time. Okay? So if you continue on in this journey, I'm going to show you where and how your design is here to be successful. Okay? So defining extreme self care is a question that Jazz is asking. Yes, extreme self care means you make sure that you go to bed early. That's extreme, isn't it? In our, in our society where we're addicted to our, a items of watching TV or watching our facebook feed or youtube or whatever it happens to be in forcing a bed time is an extreme.
When I was younger, I was doing an Ironman Triathlon. And, in order to wake up in the morning at 5:00 so that I could be out there hitting the pavement first thing in the morning, I would have to go to bed early. So as a pro athlete, if you're going to get up and train the next day, sleep is the first imperative. The next piece is what you put in your body. Everything you absorb into your body, whether it be food, whether it be the programming that you decided to watch, whether it be a what you listened to on your daily commute, whether it be the people that you're with, it's almost like you're eating those people, so surrounding yourself with people who are in alignment with the success that you want to see for yourself is important as well, and I get it sometimes we don't have a choice. Where are you working? Where do you live, who you live with, but recognize that you need to protect your aura. Taking care of yourself like a pro athlete means you don't go and hang out in places where you can get contaminated with either food or drugs or people, even people that their frequency is unhealthy and not aligned with yours. Does that help? Yes. Okay, great. Thank you.
Human Design Variable - Practical Transformation
What is Variable according to Human Design?
Variable is an advanced area of the Human Design System which offers you an in-depth look at your cognitive design and uniqueness. It provides you with a clear, practical map for the transformation of your awareness and therefore how you experience your life. It is a key to “enlightenment.”
”Variable addresses what Strategy and Authority cannot: correctness in the realms of mind and awareness. It guides us in aligning the mind to its natural intelligence, rather than attempting to align it with the Not-Self. This alignment makes possible a deeper harmony with our Design, greater peace of mind and, ultimately, connects us to our potential and our journey of transformation.” JovianArchive.com
Type organizes humans into four Aura frequencies that each share a particular approach to life. This “Strategy” enables us to live with less resistance and provides a base for our unique Authority. Variable is a calculation that organizes us into one of the 16 Variable families, pointing out the nature of our awareness patterns and the evolution of our consciousness.
”Awareness is a physical practice of a mechanical process. Type is to Form what Variable is to Awareness.” Dr. Andrea Reikl-Wolf, Geneticist and Differentiation Degree teacher at the International Human Design School.
Variable reveals the four areas of transformation potential for all nine-centered beings. Variable points you to the way you are designed to operate optimally and how you are designed to take in information and experience awareness.
Do you know if you are designed to have an Active or Passive brain, and are you designed to be the Observed or the Observer in your environment? Is your Mind designed to function Strategically or Receptively, and is your awareness Focused or Peripheral?
Do you have an active brain, which needs regular nourishment and more food, or a passive brain, which needs less?
“There is no greater revolution in this knowledge than the understanding, beyond Inner Authority, that there is such a thing as Leftness and Rightness when it comes to the brain/mind system and how it operates. It is the most important knowledge we have for the transformation of our consciousness.”
~ Ra Uru Hu
Variable is found at a very deep level of your genetic makeup. When you operate correctly, you have the potential to be able to live out the possibility of your full uniqueness and the expression of your Type's signature (peace, satisfaction, success, surprise) when accurately aligned to what is correct for you.
How is my Human Design Variable determined?
Your Variable calculation is derived from a combination of both your Personality and Design Sun and Earth as well as your North and South Nodes of the Moon.
Detailed through Jovian Archive’s Human Design software (Maia Mechanics Advanced Imaging) and free to find out when you use Jovian Archive’s online Human Design chart service, Variable comes from a deeper level than the surface of the Human Design bodygraph. Beneath the hexagram lines, there are three values named Color, Tone, and Base. Tone is the inner frequency of the neutrino’s movement through your Personality and Design crystals; and this inner architecture of what we call the crystals of consciousness is what determines your Variable.
Tone describes important aspects of your unique genetic makeup, determining how your physical and psychological comprehension functions.
Why should I find out my Human Design Variable?
Variable is to Awareness what Type is to Form; a tool for transformation. It is knowledge that can truly make a difference in not only your Human Design experiment, but also your life experience.
As a 9-Centered Being, you are a uniquely individual consciousness with the potential to be specifically differentiated according to your unique Human Design. As humans, we are designed to have a very particular way in which our intelligence expresses itself. I like to think of it as the way each of us can experience how our superpower shines when we are operating correctly. In Human Design, we call this unique intelligence potential Cognition.
Tone is the foundation of how our cognition is structured. Cognition is the result of your unique perceptions: cognition is your subjective process of knowing through sensing, experiencing, thinking, and understanding. The central theme of the way our evolution functions is that everything alive is designed to interact with cognition - learning, remembering, and using knowledge - to ensure survival.
The development of our unique cognitive potential is unlocked through the catalyst of Strategy and Authority. But walking through the door and continuing down the path takes a strong commitment to your experiment, and Variable can truly help here. Following this information through to full understanding of how it applies to you can transform your awareness at a level that is beyond anything you can think of from the homogenized perception that most of the world experiences.
Most of us are highly conditioned to see the world the way the majority sees and judges it. Homogenized consciousness comes from your thoughts; intelligence and awareness expressed out of the deeply conditioned openness in your design.
These keys are valuable tools for transformation of awareness that can make a tremendous difference in your process. They can also give you practical clues that help you to support the optimal functioning of your physical system, including your brain, which in turn can support the optimal functioning of your mind.
Meeting your Human Design Variables
Design Sun/Earth
At a physical level, Variable describes whether your brain is designed to be Active or Passive. Active brains are very busy and need more food to sustain a higher level of strategic mental activity. So, knowing that your brain is Active and that you need regular meals to maintain optimal brain functioning can be very healthy for you so that you plan ahead and don't skip meals. You are designed to deal with heat more easily than the Passive Brain people.
Personality Sun/Earth
At a psychological level, Variable describes whether you have a Strategic or Receptive mind. Our society primarily values the strategic functioning of mind and those of us with Receptive minds invariably wound up feeling less than capable when we were unable to excel or fit in, a process that begins early on at school and continues to affect us throughout our lives.
Knowing how you are designed to take in information allows you to take advantage of your optimal functioning, giving you the gift of understanding so that you can relax and trust your capacity to move through life correctly.
Nodes of the Moon
Your Personality and Design Nodes establish the framework for your form's true potential for awareness to be developed and experienced.
Design Nodes
Variable describes whether you are designed to be the Observer or the Observed. When you delve into the Tone itself (the Four Transformations) here is where you can discover what environment is most healthy for you to live, work and play in.
Optimal longevity, well-being and the likelihood of expressing the fullest potential of your unique purpose are highly prized benefits of operating correctly in your appropriate environment that result in a most efficient mental awareness and a better quality of life.
Personality Nodes
Variable also points us to the way we are designed to ‘SEE’ correctly - how we take in information in our environment. This way of seeing sets the whole foundation for how we deal with the world - in either a Focused or a Peripheral way.
When you are operating correctly in your environment, truly being able to see as yourself gives you the opportunity to offer your authentic outer authority to others.
Four Arrows, 16 Unique Combinations
The primary benefit of Human Design is discovering how you are designed to make correct decisions. Your self-understanding can be considerably deepened by understanding each of your Variables. These vital keys help guide your way as you walk down the path of awareness so that you have the potential to come into contact with the highest level of consciousness and cognitive functioning possible from your system.
Ra recorded a video series on the 16 Variables each one consisting of a group of people with those particular configurations. As a consummate 5/1 Profile, Ra gave the foundation of Variable in each video, including an overview of the evolutionary movement of our species from the all-Left to the all-Right and the human cognitive architecture.
Ra also covered the differences between Right and Left, and the specifics of each Variable’s four transformations. We invite you to discover the practical information you need, particular to your unique Variable configuration, so that you can take advantage of this information and experience the benefits it can bring. Watch your video now.
Have you seen the benefits of knowing your Variable? Please share your experiences, comments and questions about Variable with our Human Design community. We welcome your feedback and input. Your contributions develop an awareness of the possibilities of what Human Design can do for us all to raise our level of consciousness and support each other on our journey of discovering our uniqueness and living the lives we were born for.
By Certified Analyst Laveena Archers, Differentiation Degree Practitioner and Variable Teacher.
A version of this article was originally published in 2015 on JovianArchive.com
Feelings Recognized "Frustration" An Emotional Energy Projector Q & A
Today's question is an excerpt from a Right Angle Cross of Maya Emotional Projector in a Facebook group posting I felt invited to share on. With my nodes on the 32/42 axis, I get a lot of these people in my Human Design Life Coaching practice
Why Am I Frustrated?
Everyone, regardless of Type, is subject to experiencing frustration in life, despite the fact that Frustration is the keynote of a Generator Aura/Builder Career Type who is out of alignment with their highest purpose and off-track. This is because all of us have a Sacral Center, even if it is not consistently designed to respond.
If you find yourself frustrated more often than not, you're likely attempting to "push the river" and do too much without letting life ask for what it wants from you.
In other words, attempting to:
Initiate new directions, new courses of action, new relationships and create any kind of new endeavor, form new community structures or businesses, and do everything yourself, instead of learning how to work interdependently with others correctly and ask for help, is a recipe for deep frustration. Sacral defined or not!
Undefined Sacral Center (Energy Resource Function)
Emotional Projector Example Chart - Not-Self Frustration
Frustration is a keynote of the Sacral Center's life force energy out of alignment with it's purpose for being.
"No manifestation! I think that my frustration lies here."
Likely you are frustrated because your fear of missing out due to these not-self behaviors:
- Consciously driven by a tendency to say yes before you've been asked or waited for emotional clarity (Hexagram 29 "The Abyss" the Gate of Perseverance, Commitment)
- Obeying your need to be friendly/friends with someone you like to bond with them, yet in the not-self behavior you do this without them inviting you into an intimate connection or you jump into it too soon (Hexagram 59 "Dispersion" the Gate of Sexuality)
- Unconsciously needing to be realistic in your capacities to care and nurture, and perhaps resenting that you may sap the resources of others because you have a non-self need to able to consistently generate/manifest all on your own (Hexagram 27 "Nourishment" the Gate of Caring)
How to Make Better Choices:
Where you are designed to be successful and operate from is that Emotional Authority, rather than attempting to Generate (go-go-go) or Manifest (initiate to make things happen).
When you are clearly recognized and invited for your:
- Transmission of what the tribe needs to be sold on in order for everyone to have what they need to survive and keep their promises (Channel 44-26 "Surrender," the design of a Transmitter)
- Negotiation abilities to facilitate win/win bargains that build the communal structures our tribes are built upon (Channel 37-40 "Community," the design of a Part Seeking a Whole)
AND
Once you have had time to feel through your recognition of what the needs of your tribe are and sensing the emotions of what it is to be YOU.
YOU, the supportive guide of your tribe who is here to be wise about how to break down barriers to achieve unity within your network, guiding their progress with your provocative heresy you unconsciously value and passionately emote when needed.
YOU, here to be called out and of value for your network of friends (2/4 Profile).
So only use your energy where/when your peeps need your support so that all needs are fairly met. In alignment with your emotions over time.
Avoid frustration by relaxing into your chameleon-like self and allow the feelings to rise and fall, waiting for that beautiful synchronistic moment when you feel the settled-ness, the space between the emotional movement where there is no fear.
Only clarity that these are the people, YOUR people, who value you for you, who honor and respect your time, energy and advice, who give YOU what you need in return for the value you bring to them.
Now it's Your Turn, Human Designers:
Why Do Projectors Get Frustrated?
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Secrets of being a "Non-Sacral" Projector, Manifestor or Reflector
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Being Authentic in the Generator's World
If you are a Manifestor (Innovator Career Type), Projector (Advisor Career Type) or Reflector (Evaluator Career Type), do you find yourself tired more often than not?
As one of the approximately 33% of humans who are non-Sacral, If you are chronically tired or often exhausted, this Human Design article might be one of the most important you ever read. Suspend your judgment if you are new to Human Design... experiment and see for yourself.
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The primary thing non-Sacral Beings have in common is the lack of definition in the Sacral Center. However, the similarity stops there. Non-Sacral beings can be as different as night and day—indeed, 1% of the population are Lunar beings, the Reflectors. They are here to be the evaluators of who is different, and they experience life very differently compared to the rest of us who are what Ra termed "Solar beings."
We Projectors, Manifestors and Reflectors, we non-Sacral beings, have a tendency to be addicted to the Generator's yummy sacral energy. What happens when we identify with this live-force and amplify it for long periods of time is we end up living not as ourselves, but as false super-Generators, and end up burned-out. If you're a non-Sacral, do you recognize this?
Imagine a really hard-working, overzealous super-worker who never knows when to quit when it comes to work, play, and sex. Perhaps slaving after others, thinking we need to do something ourselves or it won't be done right.
We non-Sacrals just never know when enough is enough. We can be ignorant of (when we are younger) or distraught about our inability to keep up sustained activity without severe detriment to our health. Chronic levels of energy depletion, fatigue, physical and mental exhaustion, burnout, and frequent illnesses are often the results. Lack of self-esteem because we can't keep up with the pace of the world (this is especially true for the non-energy Types, Projectors and Reflectors).
We live in a homogenized world inundated with messages such as "You can do anything you put your mind to," and "Nothing worth having comes easy" with varying beliefs exalting the virtues of hard work. However, this world does not know that some of us are simply not built to be vitalized by work or find it energizing, even when we may truly enjoy what we do.
The Work/Life Balance Myth
There's a flawed assumption in our western society that "work" is draining and non-work is automatically restorative. It's not true.
Can you remember a time in your life when you became so completely absorbed in and energized by a task that it just didn't feel like work?
Can you remember a time when you came back from the holiday and felt like you needed to recover from your vacation before going back to work?
Doing what you love for work and play, as well as intelligently managing your energy is good advice no matter your Type. However, it is essential for non-Sacral beings to manage their time and precious energy in a way that supports their body that is vastly different from a Generator’s.
It can be a real eye-opener to stop the running on the treadmill of "keeping up with the Joneses," to take stock of your life and allow yourself to enter into anything only according to your Strategy and Authority, rather than what your mind thinks you should do.
What I found personally is that it took a long time to let go of from the guilt-ridden feeling I had that I needed to work really hard to prove my value as a person.
What you may find as you begin to enter into more things that are in alignment with your true essence is your life becomes more vitalizing to you instead of draining. Rather than being dragged down by resistance that comes when you are operating from the mind, there is a vibrancy, a sense of clarity and purpose that emanates from your being. You become more at ease in your skin. The decisions you make lead to the perfect balance of restorative or depleting activities for you. You begin to live your true purpose.
No Manifestor, Projector, or Reflector has a mechanism for knowing when to quit. When deeply conditioned, we can ignore our body’s warning signs and “keep on keeping on” until we simply, physically, literally just can't go on anymore. This is one of the most dangerous things you can do as far as your health is concerned if you are non-Sacral. You need to create boundaries around business and mating, even things you do for fun. Implement healthy habits and use protective techniques that honor the inconsistency of your energy. You're not here to labor hard, but rather, to learn to be wise about work and the efficient use of energy.
Work Tips for Non-Sacrals
Delegating and outsourcing are wise practices for a non-Sacral. Remember that you are not the one to be doing, doing, doing and going, going, going all the time. An objection that may come up is—"but someone needs to do all these things! If not me, then who?" My answer to this is that you may have to change your mind about how your live should be lived. Are you ready for a real change in perspective, and therefore, your experience of life? Here's the secret: You've got to learn let go of believing what your mind is saying inside your head about yourself to be the end-all-be-all of Truth for you.
It’s helpful to learn to manage your energy more efficiently through following Strategy and Authority rather than initiating from the dictates of your mind. You mind is here to measure and be of value to others, NOT to make decisions for you about your life. Learn the values of planning and prioritizing, as well as refraining from over-committing—which can happen when you don’t know when enough is enough.
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Accept that things get done when they get done—and it’s all ok. Mastering the discipline of following your Strategy and Authority provides correct timing and discernment.
Each non-Sacral is here for a very particular purpose according to their unique design. Manifestors are here to initiate and inform and have impact. Projectors are here to know others, advise and guide the process. Reflectors are here to be barometers of the health of their community and let us know how everything is going.
No matter how enjoyable or vitalizing you may find your work or play, you are not designed to sustain consistent effort or output of energy over the long term without adequate periods of rest (generally more than what sacral beings require). What works best for non-Sacrals is living a lifestyle that provides a unique balance. What you do to support yourself materially needs to allow you the flexibility of controlling when and how you work, and compensates you according to the value you bring to the table. Caring for your body and respecting its limitations are critical to your health and well-being as a non-Sacral Type.
Though everyone can be prone to overwork and fatigue through over commitment, non-Sacrals need to pay special attention to get regular and possibly prolonged periods of rest to avoid burnout. All Types find different kinds of activities assist their recovery. Participate in the activities that renew your energy, rather than add additional stress or drain you.
Dispelling the Energy Vampire Myth
Ra would often joke about us as “parasites,” saying that Generators are the Life-Force of the planet and that without them, life would perish. A common misunderstanding of the mechanics that arises among newcomers (which can happen when words or phrases can be taken out of context and spread) is that non-Sacrals are energy vampires.
As a Projector Teacher I facilitate support groups for my Projector Clients and Students.
When you look at a Human Design bodygraph, you can see the juxtaposition of the neutrino imprinting (which is colored in) with your receptivity (which is white). The white areas are where you are receptive to conditioning—you amplify that energy. Just as giving someone a hug doesn't drain the love out of them, but creates more feelings of love, so too do our undefined centers amplify the energy of the beings we are around. Just as a non-emotional being amplifies the emotional energy of the defined Solar Plexus being, we non-Sacrals do not drain Sacral beings of energy but rather, magnify it.
Frequency Distortion
When you turn speakers up very loud, the sound becomes distorted; so too can that sacral energy get distorted within you if you are amplifying sacral energy beyond your capacity to handle it. It can then be draining to others who are experiencing your frequency in a way that is not in alignment with your true nature.
We all put into others the frequency of our Aura; our definition is what we are broadcasting. ANY person can be "off" in frequency, and taking that in can be very uncomfortable where you are open. This can be why you feel drained rather than energized when you are around other people, or if you are in their presence for too long.
Just as you as a non-Sacrals is not designed to work hard for extended periods, neither are you designed to be exposed to the power of the Sacral amplified in your system 24/7. A Generator’s powerful energy can “fry your circuits” if you don’t give yourself breaks from it.
To know when enough is enough, follow your body by using Strategy and Authority in decision-making. Living your design allows the body's innate knowing to guide you. This is preferable to using the deeply conditioned mind which leads you off our true path and often into dangerous territory. Switching to following the body is a difference in frequency you can FEEL in your form. Fatigue, burnout, and exhaustion are frequent body signposts when you do not manage your personal energy resources wisely. You aren't designed for the Generator lifestyle.
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Sleep Alone
One of the more controversial (to newcomers) yet highly recommended and valuable practices the Human Design System has to offer is sleeping in your own Aura. Experiment with distancing yourself from the Aura of others at a set bedtime. Not only will this allow your system the break that it needs to discharge the energy of others, but it will allow you space and time to wind down and ease yourself into sleep.
You may find that this break gives you time for your system to settle and to clean out your Aura.
Your body can more fully recharge and rejuvenate when you are not revved up by being around others. Your sleep time is when you are most vulnerable to conditioning. Give yourself the gift of space to go to sleep alone—see how it works to improve your energy levels over time.
Strategy and Authority
Are you ready for a change in your life? Would you like to try something really different and see if it works? Follow Strategy and Authority to establish healthy boundaries around the themes of the Sacral; particularly in work, play, and sex. Rather than being always available for these things, be very discerning in using your inconsistent energy. Following Strategy and Authority are the only ways to protect you from falling into the trap of the mind and living out the homogenization of the conditioned world.
When you trust in your design, you'll get the most fulfilling life—the career, friends, experiences, places to live and lovers that are exactly right for you. Trust the process of watching rather than attempting to control your life movie. Experience your differentiation—the life you were born for, that only your authentic self can live.
A version of this article appeared originally on JovianArchive.com under the name Andrea Abay-Abay, updated and republished with permission.
Discovering Human Design - A Projector's Experience
Discovering Human Design - A Projector's Experience
Flashback: my first published Human Design article in the Jovian Archive Newsletter!
Andrea in 2012
This article was originally posted on my HumanDesignProjectors.com blog in summer of 2014. It was republished on JovianArchive.com right before they put an ad out for a social media content creator, and one of my instructors (A Cross of the Sphinx) asked me if I'd like to apply since I seemed good with social media.
That invitation changed my life radically, and as I did my Living Your Design Guide training my prayers for the past two years were answered - I was invited to work with HD professionally. Thank Jupiter for our Sphinxes to help to give direction in this life! With her invitation I began to travel the path to be the Analyst and Teacher I am today.
For fellow seekers who are searching for answers, I hope this remembrance of what it was like for me to begin my Human Design experience inspires some Hope in you to dig into your own experiment.
With Love, Laveena (name changed in 2017)
I was invited into Human Design a few years ago by someone who guessed I was a Generator from what he knew of me. He ran my chart, which showed I was one of a new Type of human that started appearing here in 1781 - a Projector. He then said emphatically "You NEED to know this stuff!”. I ordered the Definitive Book of Human Design, got a reading, and my deconditioning journey began through taking Living Your Design.
Since discovering Human Design, I have listened to and watched thousands of hours material, mainly from the Jovian Archive Media Library in the free as well as paid areas of the site, but also learning through many personal readings, coaching sessions and taking classes from certified analysts like Genoa Bliven, Kumud Kabir, Darshana Matthews, Becky Markley, Lasita Shalev and Carol Zimmerman.
I just re-took the foundation classes with Bethi Black at an in-person Human Design Intensive in Mount Shasta. This training blew me away in terms of my understanding of how I really am designed to function. Though I loved the convenience of the online foundation classes I’d taken over a year, now that I was more comfortable with the terminology, condensing that knowledge into a shorter time span and adding the in-aura interaction into my process allowed for a breakthrough in my understanding that I needed and am incredibly grateful for.
Some Human Design material I have reviewed several times over to absorb deeper meaning. Human Design uses the English language creatively to interpret the energy present in a graphical representation synthesizing major exoteric and esoteric sciences in order to understand the forces that make us who we are. Despite my years of study, after this week’s Intensive I feel like I just woke up to my design and am hearing so many things as if for the very first time. I'm in awe as I observe my body’s movements and have a visceral feeling of the practical applications that the Human Design System has in my life.
Meeting the Author of my favorite book in 2015. Photo by Lynda Bunnell
I know I can remember now to follow my Projector strategy of waiting to be recognized and invited into the big decisions in life – those critical, life altering decisions of where to live, who to love, what to do for work. I know I can wait now for clarity over time through the emotional wave of my defined solar plexus before actually moving forward with those big decisions.
In practice, I made lots of mistakes. And yet this is a far cry from the old me who would constantly strategize about my future or jump the gun on decisions. Not only would my mind scheme and manipulate, it would initiate big changes spontaneously because of the intense feelings I was experiencing in my powerful, mutating Solar Plexus Center, the source of my own inner authority, the one place in my design where I am designed to make decisions - the one place that I had been deeply conditioned NOT to trust.
Now I know how to wait. My waiting is interesting, it is active. I am never bored as I watch my movie. I am actively waiting. Waiting for clarity. Waiting for fulfillment. Waiting for the perfect timing of movement.
This looks like a more introspective me in conversations, with far more patience when it comes to big decisions. I know to wait - not to try to force anything or figure things out - though putting it into practice is much easier said than done, and I consistently catch my mind as I fall into old patterns of behaving. I know to hold back from jumping in to answer other's questions without being asked. I know to restrain from doing things without being asked. And I know that I don’t have to do everything that people ask me in order to prove myself. I know these things, but breaking the habits of my “Not-Self” way of being takes time, and I’m not there yet when it comes to the everyday patterns of my life.
However...The awareness and release from this constant pressure of conditioned behavior is a relief beyond words. That pressure that I have felt all my life to prove that I am capable, that I am worthy, that I am loveable, that I am good enough - that pressure was slowly but surely killing me.
As a child I was told constantly that I could do anything I put my mind to. Such a well-meaning and positive sounding phrase! Yet the things that I expressed that I wanted to do most were dismissed as unrealistic fantasy by that same advisor who told me what I should do instead.
Growing up as the eldest, I was used to fulfilling high expectations and being bragged about by my family, step-family and in-laws, to the point that I found much of my value in achievements and in how other people saw me. My self-worth was deeply dependent on what I thought others thought of me.
I suspected at times that the constant pressure to prove myself was detrimental... yet I didn't know how to turn it off or how else I was supposed to be!
Andrea 2016
When I turned 30, seven years ago, I consciously became aware of the frenzied pattern of over achievement that I had grown accustomed to as a problem. I knew that I had this energy within me, pushing me to be ambitious, to constantly achieve in order to prove myself, to work hard to become smarter, faster, better, stronger, more beautiful, more sexy, to take immediate action. This energy, that is not who I really was, pushed me to set my mind to do something and make it happen, to force success.
Sometimes it worked. I had a long list of accomplishments to justify my time, my worth, my value, my importance. They became resume boosters in several careers that weren't right for me, as I struggled to be consistent; to be busy, to be productive, and most importantly, to be hard-working. To live up to society's’ expectations. I was completely ignorant of my lack of life force energy to work and overworked my body. I pushed myself at the detriment of my health to accomplish, to acquire more, to achieve the American Dream.
What I learned was that my happy feelings of accomplishment didn’t last for long; chasing my many dreams burned me out to the point of extreme overwhelm, constant exhaustion and deep, debilitating depression. Even though I got everything I thought I wanted, I was bitter and felt guilty inside.
Now, I see that those thirty plus years of the recurring feeling of not-worthiness was a by-product of my personality pushing my body to do things it didn’t want to really do, and my bio-form just couldn’t operate correctly because of my blindness to my own inner truth. I had collected so many new experiences and accomplished so many amazing things, yet I never felt successful even when I did seem to “have it all.”
Andrea early 2017
I see now how open and vulnerable I was to the conditioning field of the people around me and the way that I was raised. My own incompetence (though my mind blamed it on others, wide split that I am) made me into something I was not. In my over-eagerness to please the people I loved, to prove myself and to be loved, trying to be what I was not led me to living a negatively conditioned “Not-Self” life. My expectations of myself and the expectations of others were pressures I forced myself to meet and if I couldn’t… well, I sure didn’t handle it gracefully, to say the very least.
As a Not-Self human I rarely made decisions from a place of calm or clarity - my decisions were generally impulsive, when I was either very up or very down emotionally. I ended up regretting so many of them very, very deeply - some of these decisions haunted me for years. I am designed to make mistakes and learn from them, but boy, some of my learning experiences were doozies and I would not wish them on anyone.
Despite the innate resilience that is hard-wired into my design, I got to the point where I nearly killed myself. With similar chart aspects to the recently self-deceased Robin Williams, (“Individual circuitry”, “Split Definition” and “Emotionally Defined”), I had huge waves of powerful emotions, never felt whole when I was alone and often experienced the melancholy and sometimes depression that pulses through my being.
The ache of an individual without the ability to express it’s uniqueness can drain the life out of you when not understood, and can lead to intense feelings of loneliness that may have tragic endings for a Not-Self being. When that mutating pulse is understood and honored, it could instead lead to things like deep inner truth, innovative thinking and insight, intense creativity, radical change, higher knowing, and authentic direction. When you discover the truth about yourself, you are given the keys to unlocking your true potential and living the fullness of a life you were truly born for.
My Human Design Bodygraph. Illustration thanks to Loki at JovianArchive.com
For 35 years I worked hard at making my life a success, wanting to accept and love myself, but looking in the mirror with unconditional love was just not possible. Rejection of self is a difficult place from which to learn how to behave. The pain from the countless mistakes I've made over the years through my trial and error learning process made it truly challenging for me to forgive, accept and love myself without guilt or trying to change anything.
It took heart-wrenching events of deep personal loss for me to really see the patterning of my experiences and to try to break it. Without Human Design to help me understand the program I was living and the reasons for my bitter predicament, who knows how much longer I would have chosen to live here. With Human Design I know I can peel back the layers of Not-Self to begin living as who I truly am and find the sweetness of success that I desire and was born for.
After hitting rock-bottom, thanks to an invitation I escaped the low-land city life that was not correct for me and moved to the mountains (before I even knew about Primary Health System), focusing on being in nature, meditation and studying to get back to myself. Human Design was the major tool that allowed me to finally understand my life and brought the light of hope back into it, allowing me to function again.
Name changed to Laveena summer 2017
With Human Design, I knew I had had finally found the keys to mastering my life and what made other people tick. Now that I've been experimenting with the system for a few years, and after being invited several times to write about it, I know I can finally speak up and share my individual knowing to make a contribution.
Honoring the deep call from within to understand the way the world works in terms of the illusion we are living, I decided to commit my life fully to learning and sharing this work and my process with others when recognized and invited.
The vast majority of you who might be reading this will not need the kind of intense study in Design that I did to see results. All it takes is finding out your Type, Strategy and Authority and beginning your own experiment by testing it to see how it works. Human Design is not a belief system. It is a way of understanding the mechanics of the forces around us that shape who we all are.
As a Projector, I am designed to love and master systems - and our Projector process necessitates more study than any other Type. One of Ra’s primary recommendations to Projectors is to learn from our own kind, so I sought out those I could learn from. During my first year of living my experiment and studying design, I experienced major "shattering" of many beliefs about myself, the world and others that I had stubbornly clung onto as truth. It was really hard at times; I felt very confused and there was A LOT of crying!
As a solar plexus defined being, with feeling cognition, I'm a highly emotional person – something I was always deeply ashamed of. Starting as early as a young teenager I was prescribed powerful medications (which I could never consistently take) that just were not right for my sensitive system. Several important people in my life constantly pushed medication on me and sometimes I gave in just to please them. I didn’t trust my emotions and the people closest to me didn’t trust me because of them. They just couldn’t.
As the messenger of Human Design, Ra Uru Hu would say at times after delivering a particular bit of information “It is what it is” or "What to do?” Whether you are emotionally defined and feeling your own powerful waves of emotion or not emotionally defined and amplifying the emotions of those around you, there's nothing you can do but learn about your design, so that you can understand the mechanics to ride the waves of emotions, “Live Your Design” and through it all, "Love Yourself.” Human Design has shown me how to do that and I know it can do that for you too if you are ready for this knowledge.
No matter what my re-birthed form looks and behaves like, and on whatever mountain she will end up (I am designed to function optimally in the mountains), I finally get glimpses of what “passenger consciousness” means experientially and I am enjoying the movie of what it is to be human in my own form.
Now I want to ask you a few questions.
Would you like to know who you really are?
Would you like to see your true strengths and gifts?
Would you like to know what your Life Purpose really is?
Would you like to live life as the person you were born to be?
If you answered positively to these questions I invite you to join me on a journey of deconditioning yourself of the negative beliefs and incorrect behaviors that in all probability make up the bulk of who you think you are.
Get your Human Design Chart to find out your Type, Strategy and Authority now so that you can begin your own Human Design experiment to truly wake up to what you really are. I highly recommend a personal reading with a professionally trained analyst; all have had at least 3.5 years of deconditioning and intense immersion in the authentic version of this knowledge as it was given to Ra Uru Hu, the original messenger of this work who brought it forth into the world.
Whatever path you take, the sooner you understand your design’s Strategy and Authority and implement this understanding in your life to begin your experiment, the sooner you can stop living a Not-Self life and live out your authentic uniqueness.
Isn’t it time to live the life you were designed for and experience the satisfaction, success, peace or surprise that is your birthright?
